it's 2.37am..
yep i have school tomorrow and i'm supposed to wake up at 5.30.

talked to my dad from about 12 to 2?
while doing time tunnel 4 of course..
but... was listening to him most of the time...
talked about sooo many things
it's like i havent seen him lighten up in ages

talked about his younger days..
his regrets, achievements, stress and all that
things he wouldn't have told me if we weren't there at that exact time at that exact setting

remember how it was like to want to turn 18 when you were only 10?
wow.. now i'm near 18 and i dont think it seems all that great
yes i get to drink i get to do wilder stuffs
but...
the thing that bothers me is
why am i not looking forward to being 25 now that i'm 18?
is it because the future is so uncertain now?
and i couldn't see all that when i was 10 and looking forward to 18?
not really
i didn't know what lay ahead of me and i still looked forward to it
maybe...
that's what i really need to do now..

i believe that our future's all planned out and waiting for us to live it through...
yep and i dont think many out there agree with me.
BUT
given a chance to look at what will happen next time, be it my future husband, job and kids...
i'm quite sure i dont wanna know all that right now.
secretly... i'm still waiting for another surprise to jump right out at me ;)

woah that was alot of thinking for a time like that...
it's time i get out of thinking about how i compare to others and well.. any other stuffs regarding me me and more, me.
time i give a little more time to making each day count.
sounds a little too preachy
but it just made my life a whole lot more meaningful ;)

i see you lying next to me. with words i thought i'd never speak.
awake and unafraid. asleep or dead?

sometimes i wish i could save you. and there's so many things that i want you to know.
i won't give up till it's over.

now that it's all said and done. i can't believe you were the one.

it starts in my toes makes me crinkle my nose. wherever you go i always know.

you can put the blame on me.

if you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today. if you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way. if you are not mine then why does your heart return my call. if you are not mine would i have strength to stand at all.

all my life, i pray for someone like you.

gotta let the light shine on me.

i'll be your strength. i'll give you hope. keeping your faith when it's gone.

just believe me girl someday i'll pay the bills with this guitar.

i give my hand to you with all my heart. can wait to live my life with you can't wait to start. you and i can never be apart.

i believe for you and me the sun will shine one day.

everlasting like the sun. live forever for the moment.

i need you now. so i'll hold on to it. don't you let it pass you by.
it's the state of bliss you think you're dreaming. it's the happiness inside that you're feeling. it's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry.

why do stars fall down from the sky.

see the dreams we left behind. and i'm glad cos' i was blessed to get to have you in my life.

and we'll linger on...

ohhh all the classic love songs i'm still in love with..
always an escape from everything else around me
i should listen to them more often =)