hello..
just came back from training.. i have really bad muscle aches.. cant walk properly... stupid frog jumps.. jump and jump and jump but still cant jump far enough to complete my last set.. i finished my first 4 sets pretty fast and easily.. then when i reached the 5th set, i couldn't jump le! legs so wobbly.. then stumbled all the way home lar.. i think the overhead bridge was the worst.. climb so high and must come down again. somemore my muscle SO SUAN and my legs so super wobbly.. bleahh.. then came home lor..

quite worried about tomorrow's funfair preparation you know.. scared that we cant get things up and going.. hope for the best ba.. =D

argh. i'm quite pissed. people seldom see the things that i do.. and then they accuse me of not doing so. and the tone they use is not so friendly after all. it's quite annoying you know.. you wanna tell them you really did do so but yet it cant get outta your mouth. then you just have to keep it in and blog about it.. ARGH. IT IS SO IRRITATING.

strengthen your communication. dont let your loved ones slip away.

hello! and i'm back from school.. =D

super tired.. wrestled with the video cam just now.. haha.. then we screwed the presentation up.. they load half way then the file was corrupted then automatically delete the file.. i was like.. SO PISSED!

okay so here's a few more pics..

That's fernando torres celebrating his goal again! haha.. he's just so good ain't he.. =D

Raul celebrating torres' goal! =D

sighs.. really feel sad for spain man.. oh wells.. they just have to jia you and break out of the "underachievers" status.. 4 years to do so.. JIA YOU!

okayy.. i shall go and bathe then do my work le.. byebye~

oh my god.. just finished watching spain's match against france. OH SHIT MAN. spain's out with a 3-1 defeat.. SHIT! DAMN IT! argh...
okay so the first goal came when there was a foul.. french kicked pablo's heels.. so david villa took the penalty.. then scored the first goal. okay then before half-time.. ribery scored another.. nice turn around casillas i have to admit..
second half.. raul got substituted for luis garcia.. hai.. then fernando torres really not performing.. he kept losing the ball to the french. then someone was substituted for joaquin.. forgot who.. sorry.. hai.. then puyol made a STUPID MISTAKE.. he was fouled then the french got the freekick.. then patrick vieira's header got the french the second goal.. well.. sergio ramos almost deflected it.. but he and casillas missed it all together.. so yearh.. then zidane scored the third and last goal of the game. sighs.. I'M SUPER SAD. SUPER SUPER SUPER SAD OKAY. ARGH.

okay so i slept from 9.30pm to 2.30am.. woke up to watch match and do work lor.. ARGH.. i'm so pissed. spain's out... =(((

okay now at least i can sleep more le.. can wait to watch the finals jiu hao le.. SIGHS.oh wells.. let's see pics of my favourite players.. cant see them play as a country till four years later le..

This is fernando torres. cute and pro.. very fast too.. =D

Sergio Ramos.. one of my favourites too.. heh.

YAY Raul! my favouritest favouritest player ever. haha.. =D

Fernando torres and Raul celebrating their win!! =D Raul looks so amusing..

Alright.. now i have to go to school.. will post more pictures when i get back alright? byebye~

it was nice..

oh god.. can you believe it? school starts later. i didn't sleep a SINGLE WINK last night. god i'm so gonna suffer in school today.. got training somemore. argh. howww??? stayed up late to watch soccer matches in the june hols. then now my time all luan le.. bleahh.. i've been suffering sleepless nights recently. i dont know why.. maybe i need sleeping pills or something...

okay so portugal won netherlands 1-0.. cristiano ronaldo injured and sent off. guess what portugal has 2 red cards and 7 yellow cards, netherlands has 2 red cards and 9 yellow cards! hahaha.. break world cup record le.. okayy so they fought abit lar.. figo went to head someone. heh..

i'm quite depressed right now.. cant sleep at night.. so tired in the day.. how?? better get myself adjusted back soon. otherwise i'll break down someday man. okayy i go bathe le.. gonna go school soon.. byebye~

i saw the warmth in your eyes.

hello~
yesterday went for dinner with kalun and jiayun. went suntec, ate just noodles.. actually.. we walked one round around the fountain of wealth before we decided to eat that.. heh. so ate.. yearh. got that "sponge" thing they've been talking about too. not bad. =) but sick mar.. no appetite.. so okay lar.. then walk to millenia walk.. then went to harvey norman to play with the cupboards and look at the kiddy double-decker beds.. haha.. we found out that harvey norman's wardrobes not very nice hor.. ikea ones nicer to play with.. =) okayy then we went to marina square after that.. saw that pretty pretty volkswagen new beetle! that milky white in colour one.. VERY CUTE LAR.. but kalun and jiayun say ugly.. =( oh fine.. so we have diff tastes.. heh. then remind me of the "wu gui che" thing! when we were young, everytime we see an wu gui che then we'll hit each other's head and say "wu gui che"... hehe.. quite funny to think of it.. okayy.. so it sounds stupid here.. heh.. then walk back to city link.. sian.. then walk back to suntec cos found out that we didn't walk suntec. haha. then went to fountain of wealth.. sat there and listen to music! =D they have nice nice songs.. then we wanted to dedicate.. but we dont know how to dedicate.. haha.. then we went in to touch the water in the middle of the fountain.. haha.. then play abit with the water.. =D okay lar.. so it was quite funny.. heh.. jiayun and kalun were planning for something.. heh.. shan't say.. ;)
okay then we decided to go home! went to find bus stop lar.. they didn't believe that the bus stop right outside suntec got 14 =( but in the end still went there to wait.. WAIT SO LONG LAR... then when we decided to take 196 (3 of it passed already).. 14 came.. haha.. so on the bus and at the bus stop we were like joking and stuffs.. jiayun is seriously racist.. haha.. his jokes amused kalun and i lar.. haha.. and i think kalun was super amused by the mirror thing.. heh. then on the bus jiayun talked about his LOOOOOOOONG LOOOOOOONG joke that made kalun and i so sianded. lol... so got home lor.. =)

watched ending of italy's match! =) they won =) and THEY ARE IN. FOR THE ROUND-OF-16. then at 3 got brazil's match against japan.. well i thought we were supposed to go macs to watch but in the end i still stayed at home. heh. quite nice match.. provided that brazil placed like.. so many substitutes on to play.. heh.. ronaldinho and kaka got subbed off too.. for ze roberto and ricardinho.. okay.. ronaldo scored 2 goals! the first one was a header.. and the second was one with absolute skill! he turned and kicked it in.. =) ronaldo hasn't been very good with rumours since his first match in the wc.. mostly bad rumours about his fitness. but COME ON PEOPLE. give him credit for all the fine matches he's played for brazil! it's like.. right now he's abit old and not as fit.. so people condemn him and forget all the goals and glory he brought for brazil in the past. nevertheless.. he was a soccer legend once and i hope his name will never fade.. =)

okayy so on to today! =)
i went to cut hair with lijun and sis today.. it was so last minute.. haha.. i didn't think of cutting my hair at all lar.. but since they're going.. i went too.. trim abit.. thin abit lor.. not much diff lar.. just that THOMAS cut for lijun.. god i'm so sad.. he's like.. so cute.. =D haha.. i was staring at him all the while while he cut for lijun.. hahaha.. okayy so maybe the girl who cut my hair thinks i'm weird but oh wells.. he really is cute and nice and gentle.. haha.. but i only see him once in 2 months! well i only cut my hair for that many times.. haha..


came back and caught spain's match. =D raul played first.. then f.torres came on at 2nd half i think.. not sure.. forget le.. then now france is against togo.. korea against switz... i hope korea wins lehh. i wanna see asians.. or more specifically.. chinese, get into semis or finals.. =D that'll be nice.. haha.. oh yes. yesterday was also the last time i'll see hidetoshi NAKATA play till 4 years later.. =(( BOY HE IS CUUTE!

tomorrow.. going to k-lunch and to sing and sing and SINGG with my cousin. heh. i'd better be sleeping soon.. so ta-ta.. byebye~

please dont give me the cold shoulder. tell me that you're alright. tell me that you didn't put to heart what happened.........

dui bu qi wo ai ni
by: liang jing ru, fish

mei bie de, zhi xiang shuo dui bu qi
dui bu qi, wo zhen de ai ni
bu guan ni hui zen me xiang, ni zen me shuo
ye bu hui gai bian wo de jue ding

ni zhi dao, you shi hou gan qing shi hen nan shuo
hen nan shuo, ai ren huo peng you
cong qian dao xian zai
wo zhen de gan jue yao
yi xiang ni
wo de xin jiu fa shao

xiang gei ni ting wo de xin tiao
xiang ni zhi dao wo shui de bu hao
he shui xiang zhe ni
da qiu xiang zhe ni
he yan bi yan jian
chu xian de quan shi ni

wo cai bu dao ni de biao qing
wo deng bu dao ni de hui ying
bu xiang nan wei ni
you bu xiang fang qi ni
jue ding gao su ni
dui bu qi, dui bu qi
wo ai ni

mei bie de, zhi xiang shuo dui bu qi
zen me yang wo dou hui zhen xi
bu guan ni hui zen me jiang, ni zen me zuo
ye bu hui ying xiang wo de xin qing
ni zhi dao you shi hou nan hai geng nan zhuo mo
nan zhuo mo, ai ren huo peng you
xian zai dao yong yuan
wo zhen hui gan jue yao
yi xiang ni
wo de xin jiu kuang tiao

wo de mo yang, ji bu ji de lao
qing ren ka you mei you shou dao
du shu xiang zhe ni
ting ge xiang zhe ni
da di he lan tian
chu xian de quan shi ni

wo cai bu guan ni de biao qing
wo cai bu li ni hui bu hui ying
bu xiang nan wei ni
you bu xiang fang qi ni
jue ding gao su ni
dui bu qi, dui bu qi
wo ai ni

ni ting yi ting wo de xin tiao
ni kan yi kan wo shui de bu hao
he shui xiang zhe ni
da qiu xiang zhe ni
he yan bi yan jian
chu xian de quan shi ni

wo cai bu dao ni de biao qing
wo deng bu dao ni de hui ying
bu xiang nan wei ni
you bu xiang fang qi ni
jue ding gao su ni
dui bu qi, dui bu qi
wo ai ni

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love this song.. =)

alright.. so yesterday i watched argentina's match with netherlands.. nothing much... many chances but still no goals.. EDWIN VAN DER SAR is super TALL okay. hahaha.. he's like.. 1 head taller than all the referees.. at least half a head taller than his teammates... heh.. okay so now i like 3 goalkeepers =) fabien Barthez, edwin Van Der Sar, and brazil's goalkeep. sorry.. i forgot his name. so the match ended with a nil-nil draw.. maradona was like.. leading the whole crowd of argentine fans in singing.. and he look so cartoon.. heh.. he used to be like.. WOW SUPERB FANTASTIC OH MY GOD.. and now he's singing and waving the argentina flag like just another fan. heh.. funny how things work yearh?

alright so that's all lar.. nothing much these days.. maybe going out with sis later.. =) byebye~

wo zhen de xiang dui ni shuo: dui bu qi, wo zhen de ai ni.

对不起，我爱你

hello~
woah.. watched the whole of spain's match yesterday.. till 5 in the morning.. heh.. trinidad held to their 1 goal lead from the 8th min to the 71st minute! hahaha.. then here comes RAUL!!!!!!! wooohooo... with a lovely set-up by f. Torres and c. Fabregas! wahahahha.. he scored the goal which broke trinidad's lead!!! yeahhoooo~ i was like.. so happy.. =DDDD
so they continued playing and f. Torres passed the goal-keeper and scored the 2ND GOAL!! boy was i happy.. i was like.. on the verge of screaming.. just that it was 5 in the morning and i shan't disturb anyone. heh.. that goal was quite a skillful one.. =) then there was a PENALTY awarded to the spanish! woohoo.. f. Torres took it and scored the 3rd goal for spain!! wahahahahaha! i think he's the top scorer by now.. 3 goals in 2 games leh! pro right.. haha.. i think f.torres, fabregas and Raul make a perfect combination on Spain's forward. yay so spain won 3-1 this morning! yayyy..

okay so i'm still sick now and dont know if i can go for training tomorrow. hope i can..

Jelly's like.. very sick now.. =( let's see a picture of him..

sighs.. i hope he gets well soon.. he looks so dazed and keeps sleeping.. =( jia you..

okayy so i'm done with this post.. byebye~

hello~
Italy's match with USA was quite disappointing yesterday.. 1-1 draw.. in the game, there was a total of 3 RED cards, 4 Yellow cards and 37 fouls! godd.. USA was only down to 9 men against 10 in italy in the second half lar.. gilardino scored one in the first half with a header.. but zaccardo scored a own goal.. god.. quite horrible right.. so francesco totti was substituted out half-way through.. haiiiiiiiiiii
okayy enough about the soccer matches.. heh.. haven't been sleeping much lately.. most of the matches i caught were at 3 in the morning. i'm like a zombie these few days.. bleahh.. nevermind.. shall catch up with my sleep soon..
i guess things are starting to turn for the better now.. or at least i hope so.. and i'll try to enjoy my last week of the june holidays. heh.
okayy so now i'm preparing to go out with my parents for a short shopping trip.. =) gonna put on some make-up and off i'll go.. so.. byebye~

you just came and now you're gone again.

woohoo i just finished watching SPAIN's first match... IT WAS A 4-NIL BIG WIN FOR THE SPANISH! wahahaha... but raul was only substituted in after that.. haha.. he set up the 4th goal lehh! wahahaha.. i am so happy.. he's like.. so cute.. heh.. yesterday watched korea, france and brazil's first match. france's match with switz was SIAN i tell you.. henry was quite horrible.. but i like him anyway.. then zidane was cap lar.. but not very good play too.. very disappointed.. korea's match at 9 was really not bad.. they were fast.. heh.. then was brazil's match at 3.. hmm..ronaldo seems really too old.. =(( but ronaldinho was still cute.. haha.. r.carlos too! KAKA's goal right before half time was greatt! loved it.. =D

okayy.. last night slept only like.. 1 hour? or maybe 2 at most.. then left for training.. wah.. trained from 8.30 till 1.. CAN DIE LEH.. super giddy when playing lar.. sleep so little and train so much.. somemore we da-fang with that junwei person.. can feel myself improving when yumei crystal and i da-fang with him lar.. he pointed out our mistakes.. told me whenever i did a double when setting.. and taught yumei how to jie nice nice balls.. heh.. quite cool lar.. so i came back home half-dead.. almost missed my house bus stop cos i slept on the bus.. then eat bathe and SLEEP! slept till 8.30 i think.. then eat dinner.. then watch spain's match.. then HERE I AM..=D later got tunisia vs saudi arabia.. maybe will watch. then germany vs poland at 3 lar.. see if i can cheng till 3am.. hahaha.. okayy byebye~~

entertainment fully-deprived.
disappointment today.

yo... today first training after 2 weeks of rest.. dont know why so tired lar.. haha. cant seem to bring myself to run. bleahh.. some not very happy stuffs happened in the morning lar... but after that it's alright.. then go train.. i lost touch of setting le.. must JIA YOU.. then we were like.. playing crap? then jiao lian gave us the small little sheep keychain.. when you press the sheep's belly.. it will say I LOVE YOU! haha.. soo cute okayy. then i got the only blue one.. haha.. cap mar.. okayy.. then the rest got pink! so cute.. but i think yngtyng lost it after that though. went home lar.. the way out of ccab SOOO far.. walk and walk and walk.. sian. so now i'm here! haha.. waiting for my maid to finish mopping the floor then can bathe then wait for the next soccer match at 9! wahahahahaha.. tonight dont need to sleep again. but i think i cannot cheng lar.. must drink alot of coffee.. haha.. okay i go bathe le.. BYEBYE~

so coincidental.. haha..

YAYYYYYYYYYYYYY
I GOT MY SONY WALKMAN!!!!!!!! 6 gigs of memory for my songs!! woohoooo.... happy happy.. and mine's silver.. =D with a mirror screen... wahahaha.. i'm super happy kay.. now GSS.. courts got $100 bucks offer for this series of mp3 players... i got it at 299.. wahahaha.. i'm happpppyyyy.... FINALLY I GOT AN MP3 after like.. dont know how long.. =D

hello!
okayy so today was spent mostly at hougang sports hall..
woke up.. prepared.. then left house lo...
went hougang mall food court for lunch.. heh.. not much appetite lar.. sick mar.. keep sniffing.. then medicine taking effect also.. but the chicken rice was not bad.. =D
so we walked to hougang sports hall lar.. on the way.. saw playground.. then wanted to sit swing.. then realised my butt too big and i too heavy lar.. haha... (scared the metal chains break.. XD )
so in the end we never sit lor.. then walked to hougang sports hall and realised not many people there.. no hwachong people there too.. haha.. so sit and watch SS and CJC warm up lor.. then they started playing lar.. secretly.. CJC seriously suck.. heh..but dont blame them lar.. got so little time to train.. then hwa chong play lar.. haha.. yangyi super ji dong leh.. haha.. oh wells.. her ahemm playing mar.. hahaha.. they took less than half an hour to finish playing.. hmm.. then yangyi keep saying kiral on form.. (which we quite agree lar yearh..) haha.. he's spike today was really not bad.. won their team a sufficient number of points man.. haha.. who tell their opponent to be NYJC.. haha.. okayy enough about that.. THEN CAME THE SHUQUN MATCH.. (i not sure if i got the sequence right.. but should be lar.. ) i tell you.. THEIR SHADOW SPIKE IS SUPER NICE AND LOOKS SUPER PRO! but i also not sure if correct.. but sadly to admit.. henry is really pro lar.. haha.. dont know why crystal insists that he's good looking.. haha.. but he really is PRO.. so is their SETTER! godd i think i like their setter alot too! see him play from primary school for hong kah... haha.. and yangyi keep saying 12s are very pro.. and she seems to like alot of 12s.. haha.. like shuqun 12.. nyjc 12.. and AHEM 12... (hahaha.. i'm gonna get killed for this man..)
then the pro pro ones... SHS ALUMNI! woohoo.. i tell you.. not very good-looking guys but they are SUPER PRO... hahaha.. esp. no.3's jump serve.. heh.. he is tall.. and has a pretty pretty girlfriend who looks like a mix-blood.. haha.. some people just have everything.. sighs.. anyways.. on to SHS.. hahaha.. they rock lor.. as usual.. haha.. then came this never-ending match.. i think is rjc2 and this team that i forgot.. SUPER LONG LEH.. then came SHS FALCON.. woohoo.. very cool.. really.. though they lost lar.. but still very pro.. esp. ALVIN'S JUMP SERVE.. he missed one.. but it's okayy it's good enough.. =) yumei crystal yangyi yngtyng zijie kiral left before the match ended though.. to eat dinner lar.. haha.. i wanted to watch alvin play.. so didn't go with them lar.. then ended up watching the match myself.. so sad right.. then go home myself also lar.. haha.. should be my medicine again.. then i very dizzy all the way lor.. then could barely see cos sky getting dark.. so wear my specs lar.. kao eh..really dizzy lor.. then slept on the train from hougang to outram.. then change train then got no where to sit.. so stand.. then so dizzy.. then finally stumbled home.. haha.. so here i am blogging! yay.. i like my new blogskin.. =) yay today was nicee... at least i saw alvin.. wahahaha.. his pro pro jump serve! =DDD

okayy this is long enough.. i'll stop.. =)

it's coming back. the horrible feeling of loneliness. damn. why now? i guess it's because i'm sick. argh. why cant i ever get things right. why cant i just learn to let go. why cant i just forget all that's happened. why cant i get rid of my headache! AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!

i'm sick of waiting. i'm sick of being just a someone else. i'm sick of thinking that you feel the same. i'm sick and tired. i dont know why i care so much. maybe i yearn for a place. a place where i can really stick my foot in and BE THERE. i dont want to be just an after-thought. to be an oh-i-thought-she-knew.

i think i'm just caught up in my own world. but cant i break out of it? argh. it's not so simple. you wouldn't know unless you've been through it. i'll give my all to be able to live without a care, live without unhappiness and jealousy, live without a doubt. it would just be so much easier.

yay that's 8 of us on the stairs of our chalet!

we were supposed to go sentosa but in the end the juniors didn't wanna go so we didn't go too.. they stayed and slacked around te chalet.. while the 8 seniors went to escape with the 8 free tickets! so cool lor... played everything for 1 or 2 rounds.. then got so sianed and hungry and tired.. so went to have lunch and we decided to go back to the chalet to rot.. haha.. we, dirty seniors, and some juniors slacked on the bed and talked and picked some cards (again??) and joked lor... quite funny lar... hahaha... then i decided to return to escape! and the seniors went back.. guess what.. we took rainbow like.. 5 or 6 times in a row?? hahhaa.. and that cute cute malay guy said that we have to pay 2 bucks to take the ride again.. since we keep taking and taking.. haha.. but we barged in still .. wahahaha.. then take other rides lor.. me and yangyi went to drive go-karts ourselves! hahaha.. and yy was so happy.. you can go read her blog about it... then there was a sick guy in green shirt.. he kept taking viking and staring and grinning at Haryani, this malay girl in charge of the ride. she's cute and pretty.. hahaha.. but i think she was SUPER TRAUMATISED... haha.. then she finally changed shifts and left... leaving that horrible-looking guy there... hahhaa... he's SO IRRITATING.. and we were so scared he would take out a gun and start firing... haha... okayy so we were thinking too much but WHO WOULDN'T BE SCARED BY THIS KINDA GUY MAN.. SO SCARY... so we played and played and then left escape at 8.. went food court to eat dinner.. haha.. and congrui and yngtyng bought a choco-banana cake for me! and jerrie bought me a lollipop! hahaha.. LOVE YOU GUYS!!!! (again, i'm not les.. ) then sang birthday song and stuff.. yay i'm so super happy... hahhaa... so went back to chalet... bathed then SLACKED. was counting down to my birthday and stuffs.. but guessed what.. i fell asleep.. then at 12.. (i think) yumei shouted HAPPY BIRTHDAY JIAYIN! and of course i didn't hear.. hahaha... sleeping ever so soundly.. so i slept and slept and slept till the next morning.. DIDN'T WATCH SUNRISE! SO SADDENING RIGHT... okayy... then 8 of us sat on the bed and slacked and talked... quite nice atmosphere.. haha.. yy like it alot.. then packed up and stuffs and got ready to leave chalet.. so we left at 10.3o.. then waited for shuttle bus to come.. then left lor... we went crystal's house to slack.. till 2 plus then we left for hougang mall for lunch.. then after lunch we went hougang sports hall to watch u19s lor.. then watched hwachong play and stuff.. hahhaa.. then after that we duigang-ed abit on the unused courts then left for dinner.. well we went back to crystal's house then they decided to call delivery.. hahaa.. canadian pizzas!!! hahaha.. okay so we ate.. then i had to go home.. well.. since my father wanted me to.. hahaha.. okay so went back with kalun lar.. took 156... JOURNEY SO LONG.. then sit till my butt hurt... hahahha.. then listen to songs n his phone lar.. then at the j8 stop, this CRAZY GUY BOARDED THE BUS LOR.. and i really meant crazy.. i think he took the wrong bus.. should take the 156 at the other direction.. back to woodbridge hospital.. hahaha.. he was blind lar okay... but by the noise in the bus.. he shoulda known there was alot of people on the bus.. but he sang so freaking loudly at this freaking high pitch and freaking irritating voice and started to talk to himself too. hahaha... kalun was traumatised man... haha.. caused we were like so tired then slept on the bus.. then he suddenly came screaming and it was so horrible it was impossible to sleep.. then i got so irritated that i shushed him up.. hah.. he was silent for a moment but continued lar... tian ah... hahaha.. then finally he got off at the hwachong bus stop. why? i also dont know.. hahhaa.. then we went home lar.. yearh.. hahaha.. yay i got some sims cd-roms from my sis! hahahha.. love you lots sis!

okayy so that's about all! just wanna thank all those who smsed me to say happy birthday, those who sang me the birthday song, my juniors, my dear teammates, my dear friends and family! =)) hope i covered everyone! hahaha... love you all LOTS.. REALLY.. =)))


but.. there's one thing that i'll give up every other for.