heyy peeps!

okayy.. so over the weekends.. i went out with my sis, cousin and sister!
havent been out with the both of them TOGETHER for a while.
feels good! =)
nothing much actually..
went to far east to shop..
mm...
elsa bought lotsa things!
but i only bought a pair of shorts.. =(
haha
but nice enough la...
then my sis bought stuffs too!
so shuang to have someone driving you around..
hahaha..
like go town then my sis can just drive over..
no need to take the long and dumb bus.
SO SHUANG.
cant wait to get my license. hahaha..
provided i have a car to drive in the first place lar
=P

okayy.. so went to watch SIMPSONS after that.
HILARIOUS! hello people.
PLEASE GO AND WATCH.
haha.. althought they insulted greenday and i was pretty pissed..
but STILL A GOOD MOVIE.
smart jokes man. ;)

okayy after that went to starbucks and outside ZARA to sit...
took some pictures! hahhaa..
guess what we went into DSF to look for a toilet before going home.
and we couldn't find it.
had to ask security guard.
so paiseh can (though is not i ask one =P)

then we took pictures in the toilet too! haha.. so weird.
okayy.. so pictures!

THE SIMPSONS! haha.. this thing was there with an empty space on the couch for people to sit on and take picture! so cuteeee... hahaha

This was outside ZARA... SO COOL RIGHT. i think it's super super cool.. hha.. like kinda angsty.

That's elsa in the same pose! hahaha.. we both look cool man...

Outside ZARA! haha...

This was in the toilet of DSF.. haha.. they have a niceeee toilet. and good lighting! =)

Gosh dont ask me what i was doing. haha.. elsa said funny one.. and that was all i could come up with suddenly! hahaha.. i look spastic but. oh wells. at least kinda cute *wahahaha

i'm sorry.
for you, and for myself.

you said it's about me.
yes i know...
but i'm saying i'm sorry because i know i've let you down.
but i had to tell you.
and i'm saying sorry... to ease my pain.
because i dont know what to say anymore...
i dont know what other reasons i have to forgive myself.
maybe i cant.. maybe i shouldn't.
but i know i am sorry.

i regret it.
and i regret it alot.
i know i've broken my promise once.
i know you're wondering how you can trust me again this time.
but take it as a lesson i learnt.
i regret it so much it hurts to even think of it.

so please.
i beg your forgiveness.
with all my heart.
i wont do it again.

对不起，但请你不要不理我
我知道我说什么也没用了
但我一定要你知道
我是真心诚恳地向你道歉
我对不起你了

i wont do it again.
you have my word,
believe it or not.

heyy..

120707
during training... coach talked to tingshan and me..
gosh.. i cried! but good thing she didn't see
she was telling tingshan how she should "guan3" her teammates
then said that the sec 4 team very difficult to "guan3"
say that i had a very difficult job.
then i started crying and told her that...
yes of course i tried "guan"-ing.. but it came with negative effects.
they started to question... started to find me unreasonable.
of course unreasonable in their sense.
from what i see...
i was just trying to do the right thing.
why make life so difficult for me?
you knew it was the right thing to do, and that i'm captain.
i have the responsibility to do the right thing!
AND to make all else do it too.
and then you start to question.
yearh "why i like that ah?"
sounds familiar?
i didnt know why i'm suddenly so bothered about this.

BUT NOW I DO.
i saw me in Tingshan.
saw the captain in her.
saw myself in her.
i know i may have put my ideas across bluntly.
forgive me. i cant speak well and you know that.
but cant you just understand what i'm trying to do for the team?
no.
that's why i had to change.
changed to someone who didn't CARE either.
guess what's the outcome???
just look at our juniors.

to all my juniors out there..
sorry if i offended you. i really cant express myself and tend to hurt others.
but i have absolutely nothing against all of you...

i dont know..
i've been a failure as a captain.
(xinyi i am.. i've done lots of things wrong. sorry if i get you upset about this)
but all i want to say now is.
i'm sorry guys.
sorry i couldn't be the captain you guys wanted,
sorry i'm not the perfect setter you guys can find.





okayy
dont know what i've been saying up there..
maybe it doesn't sound right at all.
but i'm darn confused right now.

xinyi wrote me a letter today... (thanks so much.. really gave me support)
when i first read it my eyes actually welled.
but i held it in.
i'm gonna have to train myself to do this man.
had enough of crying.
and no i wont cut. rest assured.
it's a promise, a vow.
thanks again xinyi...

130707
was counting down to end of school today...
friday the thirteenth. gosh really bad luck.
first thing in the morning i saw a HUGE black cat.
TWICE THE SIZE OF JELLY
then okayy.. first i poked myself with my compasses.
like gosh! the thing like..stick inside my little finger.
usually i wont complain much, i wont feel much...
cos am quite accustomed to hand injuries from volleyball.
but was moaning like crazy.
really painful. WHYY???
then after that was chem lab.
when i spilled sulphuric acid over the wound it was like...
OUCH. OUCH. TRIPLE OUCH.
then was lunch.. volleyball..
forgot i wasn't in my training gear...
skid on the floor... friction burn. =(
freakin' painful when i was bathing.
after that went to queue for yoghurt ice cream.
half an hour! enough is enough!
people are cutting all the way and we were stagnant for very long. hmms.
then was late for dental.
okayy dentist tightened my braces ALOT.
it's very painful now.. cant bite... so ate porridge for dinner.
nevermind. I'M GETTING STRAIGHTER TEETH.
HURRAH
then met ben after his training..
wanted to go to our "lao3 di4 fang1" but in the end got funeral there..
another one time of bad luck.
so came over to my house..
nothing to do.. stone in front of the TV.
then he went home.
hahahahaha.. yay now i know how SHE looks like.
quite pretty! like seriously!
no wonder he liked her.
feel quite zi bei though.. =P

now.. i've decided to write a letter to ben, xinyi and zijia. =)
okayy! shall go do so now..
then will have to sleep.
PT training tomorrow!
please pray hard for me so that i wont die. =)
thanks a alot.

so toodles people!
with love...

看上去, 我真的比不上她. 但谢谢你的爱和关怀.
我始终无法忘记, 我和你的美好时光, 希望你能早日回到我身旁.

this could be good...
hey you...

070707 anybody watched LIVE EARTH?
gosh it was good! (online one)
i woke up at 3 am in the morning to watch Linkin Park's part in the concert..
WHOOTS THEY WERE GOOD. FABULOUS.
Wear green. show your support. i wore. did you?

alright.. 060707 was nanyang youth day funfair!
Real cool! hahaha... had a whole 3 and a half hours of fun..
well.. i'll let the pictures do their magic. =)

Okayy this is US infront of our stall and banner! hahaha... shinyi, kaihui, zijia, jiahui and me! i love this photo =))

haha.. they're putting up the banner... Zijia, shinyi, shuhui, kaihui and gwen in front!

Okayy so we were thirsty in the funfair and bought coconuts to drink! healthy leh.. haha.. this was taken by the ecopond. spastic right.. i think i look dumb but oh wells! hahhaa

That's how our coconuts ended up. lol we went into a sec 3 classroom and stole markers for a while to draw on our coconuts! zijia's one on the left is called cocohead and mine on the right is called coconathan. LOL

We were on our way to com lab to finish our group essay and i decided it was a nice place to take pictures! hahaha.. jiahui, kaihui and shinyi!

Okayy this is in the hall! we were waiting for debrief and decided to take a picture. hahaha.. zijia and i look so smaaaallll and faaar awaaaay.... hahaha... Jiahui, kaihui, shinyi, zijia and me!

Zijia's tattoo! haha.. spidey...

my tattoo! yay birdie... the body arts were nice and artistic...

Shinyi's tattoo! haha.. dog paw... SO CUTE!

Back in class... xinyi and i! i think we both look spastic. hahaha.. please dont kill me xinyi

Okayy.. this is about it..
Had a great time in funfair! ate alot...
walked around.. bought a test-tube thing too..
with my name in it...
okayy.. till next time!
and zijia... yes i finally blogged. =D

byebye!

i miss you.. i really do... but at least all my pain is now gone. i'll never turn back.

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