Hello!
I've just reached home...

I THANK ALL MY TEAMMATES AND MY JUNIORS AND MY COACH AND MY FRIENDS.
yay!! got lotsa presents!

thanks yumei!
i LOVE the spongebob shirt!
hahahahahahaha
it's like SUPER CUTE.
but i dont dare to wear!
hahaha.. but i still like it ALOT anyway!!
THANK YOU

thanks yngtyng!
yay chocolates!
PRALINE somemore..
yay..
you know what chocos i like..
hahahaha..
sure grow fat but it's okayy!!
THANK YOU

thanks yingrong!
wahahaha..
powerpuff girls!
how you know i like buttercup??
yayness..
it's CUTE and FUN!
THANK YOU

thanks crystal!
i wanted to add the toffee thing in my gift pack!
but heng never..
otherwise i get one whole box back!
lol...
but i love it anyways!
wahahahahaha
THANK YOU

thanks huiying!
although i dont know what that animal is...
i think it's a llama..
hahahhaa..
but it's really SPECIAL!
alllll the way from australia man..
thanks for the nougat too!
THANK YOU

thanks shufeng!
wahahaha..
small bottle of sand...
but i believe the thoughts inside are countless!
like every grain of sand in there!
yay..
THANK YOU

thanks xinyi!
yay!
gemini keychain!
FINALLY something for my phone!
hahaha..
and the sock is really cute..
though i may break it if i were to try wearing it heh.
m n' ms too!
THANK YOU

thanks seeting!
yayyyyyy...
DARK CHOCOLATE.
ONE WHOLE BAG OF IT.
wahahahahahahahahahaa...
another of my fav. chocos!
i realised ALOT of people gave me chocos..
gonna grow fat! hahaha..
THANK YOU

thanks yangyi!
woah...
MOST CREATIVE PRIZE GOES TO......
TAN YANG YI!
hahahha...
nice nice nice mousse cum chesse cum biscuit cum apricot cake!
hahahahaha...
you rock girl!
must make more next time hor..
hahahhaa.. too nice to eat le!
THANK YOU

thanks congrui!
wahahaha...
the card alot of vulgarities leh!
tsktsk..
but oh wells..
YOUR DRAWING IS SERIOUSLY GOOD.
heh.
THANK YOU

thanks zijie and kiral!
wow one whole bag of top choco bars!
yayness..
seriously gonna grow fat
but who cares?!
it's CHRISTMAS!
THANK YOU

thanks junhao!
yay
though i havent received my present..
at least you told me there was one..
so i shall thank you in advance!
THANK YOU

thanks ruiyang eehong darren! (i think..)
for the bag of chocolates and sweets!
really nice..
THANK YOU

thanks to all my juniors!
yay..
i'm so sorry i cant remember who gave what..
but i'll try to list them here!
i got
-dove amicelli
-chuppa chupps lolli
-peanut sweet thing
oh no..
i cant remember le..
tell me if i missed anything out alright!
THANK YOU

thanks jiaolian!
yay!
she treated us to o'brien's sandwiches..
it's like SO expensive..
but nevermind..
if we make it to nats,
we'll have cafe cartel on her treat!
yay!
XIE XIE

if i missed out anything or anyone,
PLEASE TELL ME AND KNOCK MY HEAD OKAYY

yay i bought bags of chocos for my teammates..
(hope you like them guys..)
trust me..
the chocos are all very nice!
never doubt jiayin's taste on chocos..
hahaha..
expert here man!
(no wonder i so fat)

nyvb sec 3's 2006,
YOU GUYS ROCK.
LOVE YOU ALL!

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE!
have a happy happy christmas with your loved ones!
(if got no one then come find me. wahahahahahaha)

hello!

alright so these few days have been spent doing homework, worrying about homework, projects and training..
haha.. HOLIDAYS leh.
sian. how can i spend my holidays like that?
sighs..

okayy so yumei yingrong yngtyng just started asking me weird questions after training yesterday.
scare me lor.. hahah
but okay lar.. realised some stuffs that changed after so many months...
given up... it's better for me anyway..
won't be so sad all the time.
wahahaha..

alright.. these few days have been spent wondering how i'm gonna spend this lifetime.
oh dear.. i ended up asking myself so many questions that i'm settling into depression again.
i dont know what i want to do next time, i have no goals for next year, and i'm just living a day for a day.
gotta change yearh??

Keep thinking of this movie i watched with my teammates quite some time ago.
THE PRESTIGE.
love the movie.. really..
really.. life is all just a magic show.
the starting is grand with some beginning tricks just to get the mood up.
the tricks are simple, yet always entertaining.
then the tension rises as the crowd starts getting restless.
the simple tricks are not enough.
the crowd wants more.
yet the magician always changes at the right time and performs his great trick he is known so much for.
the climax.
a trick which he has practised and perfected all to show the audience.
yet deep in the hearts of the audience,
all they are waiting for,
in spite of all the amazing praises awarded to this magnificent magician,
is for him to slip.
just a minor mistake in the trick.
and all else goes wrong.
but it's not the case.
the trick is perfect.
perfect.

the magician PLEDGES.
he invites some from the crowd to inspect his machinery.
no scams.
seems perfectly real.
what a wizard.
he does the pledge.
to disappear.
and reappear.

the magician TURNS.
the machinery is activated.
the magician steps in,
gives his best smile ever.
and he disappears.
the crowd gasps.
eyes are wide, hearts are thumping, all are worried.

then he does the PRESTIGE.
in just a sudden flash.
he's back.
the magician's back.
the crowd applauds.
applauds so loudly,
it seems to the magician it was all worth the effort.

the effort of using someone who looks SO much like you,
he frightens even yourself.

call that a trick?
scams. all a lie.
just like life.

people congratulate when you're born.
but deep inside, they know.
someone else has joined them in a living hell.
it won't be an easy journey. good luck.
when things turn for the worse,
they start getting worried.
but they know it's all part and parcel of life.
so they wait.
they wait.
they wait till you struggle out of difficulty on your own.
to live and strive for all you've suffered for.
then when you reappear as someone successful,
they applaud.

so what is the most important in a magic show of life?
the prestige.

you want people to applaud for your achievements. dont you?

though you know.. it ain't all that perfect afterall.