i seriously can't play in a team where the spikers dont trust my setting. i'd rather not be in the team at all.



maybe it's the reason why i flared up so much today. maybe... there was something else. sighs. 3 more days. and it's been...let's say. 2 years? 3? boy, was that long.



maybe there was something else too. oh yes. jerk. BIG TIME...... oh forget it.



okay so i'll have to wait for a few more weeks till i get my nokia 7370. but oh boy is it goin'ta rock! hahaha... okay so some call it the tai-tai phone BUT it's got classss.... alright?



oh i've just forgotten. CIP on saturday.. looking forward to it! ;) oh no. the pouch. ahh.. i'd better get it soon.



wallace and gromit's out today! 29 december! gonna catch it soon, hopefully before school starts again. well. guess what. school's reopening soon and i haven't got a BAG. sad right.. okay so i've seen quiksilver, ripcurl, roxy, mambo, radioactive, flash n splash, adidas, nike, mizuno, 77th street? yep.. i think there was more.. but cant remember le. oh wells. cant find something good STILL. shall wait.. meanwhile.. my OP bag shall rot and rot till i get a new one.. hehs.



okay. today's a bad day. guess i was PMS-ing the whole time..... so yearh... byebye~

well, christmas eve today, yays fun! went snow city with yngtyng xinyi wenjing yingrong=DDchao fun larrrrrrrr!!!took some pictures too. will post them up asap(after i finish ironing clothes) okay.. after that almost went to science centre but realised its better playing for the whole day. so all of them came my house lor! watched mr and mrs smith, (OMG BRAD PITT!) ya.. after tt rotted and watched cartoon stuff. so xinyi had to go for her xmas dinner, and jing home, so me and yingrong went to yngtyng's grandma's house fr BUFFET! wheee! (heh heh the food was really good)played volleyball with her cousins and chased around this guy chao funny la! he is so flirt. ok lor so came home lor. now yingrong sitting in front of the com while im ironing clothes.(ok fine, im ironing and telling her wad to blog abt.)



well...keep your words to yourself. do i look as if i care? be careful i may slap u anytime.



begining to forget you....

well. chalet was quite fun. went to escape first thing i got there.... though i had training in the morning and was freaking tired, i still had lotsa fun! yay. my first time driving go-kart leh! very fun! haha.. but too bad, i only tried the beginner's track. but oh wells. i crashed into elle TWICE in one race. hehs. but too bad revolution(pepsi) and rainbow not open. sad right. THE HAUNTED HOUSE PART WAS SO FUN YET FREAKING AND HORRIBLE! haha. screamed straight from one end to the other. haha. stupid idiotic peoples wearing masks and black cloaks trying to scare other people. REN XIA REN HUI XIA SI REN! it's really really true. haha. okayy. then went back to chalet and rot.. returned the xbox game and stuffs then slept till next morning packed and go lor.. haha. that's all for it.. but oh wells. shall just continue to blog.



burning on, just like a match you strike to incinerate the lives, of everyone you know. and what's the worst to take, from every heart you break,and like the blade you stain, well i've been holding on tonight.



came a time, when every star fall brought you to tears again.



can you hear me? are you near me? please pretend to leave and we'll meet again when both our cars collide.



so long and good night, so long not goodnight.



well.. snippets of lyrics from helena.. it's quite a sad and scary song actually. the part where the cars collide. it's that the couple in my pic above(the one of my blogskin) met with a car accident. the girl died and the guy didn't. he's mourning for the girl and really missing her. for the last sentence-so long and goodnight... he was saying his last goodbyes to the girl. and so long not goodnight, is to tell her that they wont say goodbye and that he'll join her soon enough.



well.. i was just wondering.. if any guys would ever do that for me. haha. it is so sweet yet so sad. well. at first i didn't really understand the lyrics.. but when i really listened to the lyrics for the first time.. i cried. oh wells. it's just a song.......................................................

i would like to proudly announce that i created this blogskin! haha. okayy.. maybe i copied the division id thing but everything else was done by me! haha.. first time okay... so happy... oh mann.. my chemical romance.... i love them! esp. helena.. haha.. the mtv is soo cool.. anyway.. if you didn't know.. this song playing IS helena.. hehs. couldn't find the video.. otherwise i woulda added it in here. hehs.. okayy.. much happened today but i shan't talk about them.. i just wanna say.

i lead a life. MY WAY.

- will you bother? will you even care? no. because you won't ever know it's you.

-when we were younger, you told me once. you would take my hand, and walk me to the end of this world. yet now, i feel like i'm a burden to you.

-you let me taste the sweetest essence of life and yet made me lose it all at once.

-i'm walking on the 22nd road to nowhere.

-time would change everything. but- for the better or for the worst?

-i doubt i can forget but at least it'll be buried deep inside where no one else can probe.

-it was like a fairytale. just that it ended right before the prince even saw the princess.

-everything's gonna be okay, but we're still gonna die in the end.

-spend the distance, bridge the border.

-i lied.

-i've never felt so stupid in my whole entire life. i've always thought things would change for the better. but never has it happened before! i spent my life believing in something that totally wrecked my life instead. it makes no sense. yet-i'm a walking contradiction.

-you can't ask much from love. what's yours will be yours. what's never yours, will never end up in your hands.

-only when you've gotten rid of all unhappiness, will there be light.

-fighting for something that i know would never come to good end.

so long not goodnight.

will. ti amo.

well.. have to give thanks to those who comforted me when i felt really down.. thanks for all the comforting words and stuff.. =) esp. someone. really have to thank you. you were the only one who bothered so much. thanks alot.

erm.. well i've come to a decision. yes, i may cry but after that, i believe i'll feel much better. =) so.. yearh.. shall wait for that time to come..

ohh... haha.. i suck at tic-tac-toe. hehs. but well... still had beginner's luck! for solitaire showdown too.. haha.. okayy.. tomorrow--snow city! =) with ling they all.. yay. but have to wake up at 7.30. sian right..haha.. guess i shall sleep le.. have to wake up early tomorrow... byebye~

ti amo.. for the last time..

had a talk out. well.. someone doesn't know how lucky he/she is. that's too bad. you have everything a person can want, yet you choose to leave a blind eye to it. maybe it was my fault. so i'm sorry.

i realised most of what i say referred to myself. so true... yet so unwilling to do anything. i will do something when i've summoned enough courage. courage enough to end everything. everything i have treasured for so long. treasured to keep my life going. my life? well.. to hell with my life. i dont know why everything must be so hard for me. or maybe i created the trouble myself.

falling in love with someone whom you never ever should was already a big mistake.. falling deeper in was bigger. it's like getting stuck in an abyss, with only the strength of your good pals to pull you up. and sometimes, instead of pulling you outta the abyss, they let go, and you fall deeper. that hasn't happened to me. nd i dont want it to. well. all i can say is, love sucks.

dont think i'll do nothing. i WILL. in time.

tell me. when was it that you first made me feel this way?

hais.. still very fucked up. okayy. i shall NOT think about it. makes me wanna puke even more. argh.

I DONT KNOW WHAT'S HAPPENING TO ME.

TALK TALK TALK WHISPerrr...

haha.. i shall SHUT UP. erm.. nothing much today except that i ALMOST went out with my sis.. but in the end couldn't find anything to wear! so i stayed at home.. haha.WATCH LORD OF THE RINGS for dont know the how manieth time le.. haha.. I REALISED I CAN MEMORISE THE RETURN OF THE KING DE SCRIPT ALSO LE. haha.. but this one was the special extended dvd platinum version! haha.. so cool larr.. ARAGORN IS SOOO MANN.haha.. okayy... dont know what to blog about so.... byebye~

wahaha... i think yingr is very funny lar.. she realised lotsa things she had not before yesterday..lol.. and i am sooo sorry. haha. okay.. AEONFLUX is good. watched with yingr and her sister! haha.. quite disgusting too. they dig and dig into their skin for some capsules and bullets. crazy and very LARGER THAN LIFE.haha. but actually it's a good show. very worth catching! but i'm SO gonnawatch pride and prejudice. yingr also.. haha.. maybe we can watch again! haha...

yays... finally i told. kept it inside for quite long.. haha... feel much better now.. thanks yearh.. =D

hehs.. I LOVE MOUSEY. as in.. my hedgehog.. haha.. please play with it!! wahaha... i really should adopt a spider named zijie.. haha.. okayy..

monday--> friendly with HCJC. DIE.
tuesday--> go skin center (maybe)
wednesday--> training at SMU
thursday--> friendly with HCVB. DIE AGAIN. haha...
friday--> training at SMU.

i just found out that i really got no life.. haha.. and I NEED TO START ON MY HOMEWORK SOON.

okayy.. zijie's rgs friend saw us at cine yoshinoya just now. so embarrassing. we sat inside then decided we not hungry yet. haha.. so we left the place about a few mins after we just sat down.. haha.. then his friend say can see yingr's butt lar.. cos we were wearing extra low waist pants... haha.. then yingr was so traumatised and we kept thinking that person was stalking us or something. haha. but nevermind.. bought some stuff.. yearh.. OHH. at the food place in taka.. saw this guy who was taking orders.. HIS EYES ARE VERY NICE. haha. but overall his face can make one puke.. yearh.. haha but his eyes are really very attractive.. haha.. okayy. ate yoshinoya today for the first time and guess what. is with yingr. haha. okayy lar.. nothing much except it was very filling cos had lotsa rice.. yearh.. yay.. took neoprints lorr.. that freaking machine is terribly freaking. haha.. take so fast in the end all very spastic. haha.. then at first i thought the machine spoil. but had to pull out the photo thing myself. haha.

okayy. actually nothing much really.. just that wanna say CHARLIZE THERON IS FREAKING PRETTY AS AEON FLUX. haha.. then i'm SO GONNA WATCH KING KONG.. otherwise you can kill me as a lord of the rings fan. haha.. okayy shall list the movies i wanna watch. haha..

-chicken little!
-chronicles of Narnia
-King kong
-pride and prejudice
-that chinese show that i dont know the name.. haha..
-history of violence(R21) so sad... viggo mortensen got cast leh! but is R21.. hai..

i htink that's all.. will add more.. haha.. okayy.. byebye~~