i'm turning 17 this saturday...
the closer the day comes,
the more i think it isn't very significant after all...
well.. it's just another day.
haven't i had 16 other days which are just like that
nothing very special at all

and...
i guess it's really time for me to grow up.
i need to accept... that
fairytales dont exist...
crying doesn't help anything...
and things don't always turn out to be how you want them to.

life's changed.

well...
things could've been better.
i dont know what to do now.
baby won't you tell me why
there is sadness in your eyes
i don't wanna say goodbye to you
love is one big illusion
as we try to forget
but there is something left in my head

you're the one who set it up
now you're the one to make it stop
i'm the one who's feeling lost right now
now you want me to forget
every little thing you said
but there is something left in my head

i won't forget the way you're kissing
the feeling's so strong
we're lasting for so long
but i'm not the man your heart is missing
that's why you go away
i know

you were never satisfied
no matter how i tried
now you wanna say goodbye to me
love is one big illusion
as we try to forget
but there is something left in my head

i won't forget the way you're kissing
the feeling's so strong
we're lasting for so long
but i'm not the man
your heart is missing
that's why you go away
i know

yes i know

sitting here all alone in the middle of nowhere
don't know which way to go
there ain't so much to say now between us
there ain't so much for me
there ain't so much for you anymore

~ Michael learns to rock, That's why you go away

i totally love that songg
so oldd so touchingg!
hahaha...
been replaying and replaying it on my phone since...
forever? =P
okayy now.. one more song =)

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you
And I'm wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go?
You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone

Girl you could have stayed
but you wouldnt give me a chance
With you not around
It's a little bit more then i can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away

So why does your pride
make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me
But I know it's a lie
What you keep inside
This is not how you wanted to be

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine
It just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do
I'll wait for you

It's been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You got me feeling crazy
How can you walk away
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby

What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is
And it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me
your still in love with me
Don't leave me crying

Baby why can't we just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance
I can love you right
But you're telling me it wont be enough

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine
it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do
I'll wait for you

So why does you pride make you run & hide
Are you that afriad of me
But I know it's a lie what you're keeping inside
Thats not how you wanted to be
Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing i do

Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine
it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do
I'll wait for you
I'll Be Waiting.

~Elliott Yamin, Wait for you

let me
let you go...

today was match number 1 of quarter-finals...
against SAJC...
won them 25-17, 25-12...
overall was quite okayy.. i think i played about...
5 points of something?
but the entire atmosphere was..
FANTASTIC...
from the moment i stepped into court...
the other 5 were like..
so enthu and shouting like mad..
then was just shouting and shouting with them...
greatt feeling..
NOW i feel the team spirit..

this week iss...
plain crazy...
matches on monday wednesday friday...
training till 9 after my matches on monday (it's today!) and wednesday...
just had chem test this morning..
GP compre+AQ test tomorrow...
econs test on friday..
saturday train again..
wow...
it's only been one day..
AND I'M PRETTY WORN OUT.
hope the rest of the week goes well..
and hope i actually survive through it..
jiayouu to my teamates too..
cos i guess they're pretty much as busy as, some even more busy than i am...
so... JIAYOUU

okayy.. it's pretty late now..
tomorrow's a long day..
i end school at 3.30..
sadded cant go watch guys' match..
important match tomorrow.. hmms..
JIAYOU TO YOU GUYS TOO...

it's 11.19 now.
gotta go..
be back soon to blog again!

can't wait for tomorrow!! ;)
miss you.. so much..

preliminary rounds are over...
now on to the quater-finals...
draw was with AC, SA and VJ...
hmm.. coach didn't want this draw..
think he wanted the total opposite...
now JJ, NY, AJ and MJ are in the other group..
looks like we'll have a greater challenge in semis..
that is IF WE MAKE IT.
but... yep.. hope we do...

anyways.. got our team bag!
our nike total 90 grip.
greattt bag.. and havent seen anyone carrying it you know..
that's great..
and for a great price of 55 too!

realised i havent blogged for quite a while..
quite caught up with my own stuffs now...
training.. matches.. tests.. SLEEP..
there never seems to be enough time to do them alll
and do them well...
now i know the reasons why we were put through countless boring talks on TIME MANAGEMENT last time...
kinda regret sleeping through them you know..
could've managed myself better...
oh wells.. too late
messing up alll my priorities now.
hope i get my life back soon.
but wait.
I DONT WANT COMPS TO END..
=C

been thinking alot these few days..
(wonder where i got all that time to do so)
and.. i owe apologies to alot of people
my family..
for always coming home with a black face..
after training... after matches... after school...
mood's never good...
my friends...
missing all the opportunities to catch up with you guys..
really have no time to squeeze out of my hectic schedule now..
you...
i'm just utterly sorry.. dont know how else i can put across my apologies but..
i'm sorry.
truly sorry.
things WILL get better soon.
i promise.
and you know me...
you have my word for it.

okayy.. that's all for the heavy-hearted stuffs...
anyways...
i realised i have been squealing to charis heiyi and tricia about my eyecandy whenever he walks past...
for like the past.... forever?
hahaha.. i think i should stop. hmms.
isn't REALLY an eyecandy anymore actually...
hahahhaa...
yearh yearh about my san fen zhong re du...
=P

okiee.. math test tomorrow.. chem test monday
SHOOT.
guess what?
i dont think i can finish studying..
and guess what else?
i'm gonna flunk my math tomorrow..
THREE CHEERS FOR ME.
man..i havent flunked math since... a long time ago..
maybe i should start studying and stop blogging..
oh wells...
okayy.. shall end here then...
goodbyes!

p.s. anyone who wants to come down for the volleyball quarter finals matches at CCAB, please ask me for the schedule! haha.. the entire team would LOVEEE supporters =D

it's been a great two months dear angel..
dont want it to ever end. =)