;)

2012-01-30T22:47:00.001+08:00

nothing. it's empty. again.

2012-01-28T16:12:00.001+08:00

<3 my beer kakis
Had an awesome time! And thanks for not judging...

2012-01-23T23:49:00.002+08:00

worst cny i've ever had. till now at least. well, what more can i expect?

i couldn't even finish one whole stick.

2012-01-09T21:56:00.003+08:00

Fa male quando si esegue operazione per me. Will non si sa mai come mi sento nei tuoi confronti?

Voglio solo che tu a farmi vedere quello che mi hai detto tutto questo tempo. Che possono effettivamente rendere questo vale la pena.

2011-12-24T03:46:00.001+08:00

Withdrawal.
It sucks. Big time!
But I'll get through it. I will!

I had so much fun... Thanks for everything..

Thanks. For not judging =)

2011-12-09T09:00:00.001+08:00

I've had enough of these toilets! No matter how developed the city, the uncultured plagues its growth and will never rise to its greatest potential...

2011-11-30T01:42:00.001+08:00

It's empty.
Nothing. Just plain nothing.
It engulfs you all at once. But after a while... Things just don't matter anymore.

2011-11-29T15:11:00.001+08:00

Feels great to dream sometimes... If our lives had crossed just a little earlier... It could've been better than this.
Sometimes it hurts instead.. Never know how bittersweet this will taste... I wish nothing but the best for you....

2011-11-23T21:47:00.001+08:00

Ouch! The price we pay for what we consider to to be beautiful in this age

2011-11-22T15:53:00.001+08:00

'cause all I am is empty

2011-11-08T18:20:00.001+08:00

IT'S SO UNFAIR
It should've been my group, me!

2011-11-03T02:07:00.002+08:00

it sucks to not be able to sleep =C

i miss the times when i could just lie on the bed and be in lalaland within minutes..

2011-10-31T00:49:00.000+08:00

goodnight world!

and all who inhabit it =)

2011-10-27T18:38:00.001+08:00

I hate the letter f... Seriously, I do...

2011-10-20T20:50:00.001+08:00

fuck. don't you dare compare me to her.

and insulting me like that? you've gotta be kidding me.

it's time you FOD-ed. pronto.

2011-10-18T10:23:00.006+08:00

Now I know what I've been missing out on =))

I need one. now.

2011-10-08T15:14:00.001+08:00

sometimes i just HATE YOU TO THE CORE
even when you're trying to look out for us,
DO YOU NEED TO BE SO BLUNT

and he's right!
WHY THE HELL AM I PUTTING UP WITH THIS.
fml

2011-09-30T11:59:00.001+08:00

This time, don't even know the perfect line...

2011-09-15T08:57:00.001+08:00

That should be me holding your hand
That should be me making you laugh
That should be me, this is so sad
That should be me, that should be me

That should be me feeling your kiss
That should be me buying you gifts
This is so wrong, I can't go on
Til you believe that
That should be me...

2011-09-14T13:15:00.003+08:00

god how long are you gonna keep this up anyway?
don't you find it such an utter waste of time at this age?
it's never gonna help you later and it costs you so dearly.. think about all the injuries man..

2011-08-10T03:14:00.000+08:00

it hurts. LIKE HELL. literally, I'm fucking burning.

2011-08-09T17:33:00.002+08:00

All our efforts just gone down the drain like that...
Hurts to think how much of a statement we wanted to make could in fact, effect so little after this.

2011-07-19T23:30:00.002+08:00

The much awaited company pales beside what I've yearned for that's right next to me =)
feels like you mean much less than I've given you credit for.

2011-07-03T16:20:00.001+08:00

i'm sorry!
i panicked and i know i put all of us in a mega dangerous position, but i regained my composure and got us out of it.
i'm so sorry and just glad that no one was hurt.
i'm gonna watch it next time. you can take my word for it...

2011-06-24T16:28:00.000+08:00

I'm already missing you!
Don't ever leave me cos i'll never make it on my own..

2011-06-18T21:41:00.001+08:00

I'm sorry but that was the right thing to do. I'd have loved to be flattered but I'm in no position to accept it ;)
you deserve better!

2011-06-07T18:15:00.002+08:00

It's these things that make me pissed.
For once just let things go the way I wish them to. PLEASE?!

2011-05-28T14:36:00.001+08:00

I've missed you...
But at least you've given me the space I've very much needed. For a long time.
=)

Feels much more refreshing!

2011-05-12T22:51:00.000+08:00

it's a strange combination of feelings....
loss, confusion, nostalgia and so much more...

time seemed to stand still.. all the way till i got home just now.

at least i know i enjoyed myself the last few days with the people i love =)

2011-04-12T13:11:00.002+08:00

Thank you for your kindness =)
but just take note that this doesn't change my perception of you or what you preach...
It may just be another means that I would like to experience. At least once in my life =)
well... Then thanks for that too. Hahah

2011-04-07T21:46:00.001+08:00

你也很烂啊！

2011-04-05T18:58:00.000+08:00

i want it to stay this way, even when we're old and grey... always.

2011-04-01T15:25:00.000+08:00

Hello can you please go away you're disturbing me alot thanks =)
oh. And I'm already asking NICELY. grrr....

2011-03-24T17:55:00.000+08:00

2011-03-22T19:03:00.002+08:00

say hello to countless more tasks thrown in your face after a 10-hour school day with a 4-hour lab that almost killed me cos i dont know what the hell was going on.

welcome to my life.

wow and currently i feel more like servant. thanks to you.

2011-01-29T13:51:00.004+08:00

will you ever know how i feel towards you?

deep down i always hate to hear her name.. it causes you so much pain and yet i can't say anything about it.

2010-12-03T17:32:00.002+08:00

FOR ONCE I JUST WANT YOU TO KNOW THE COUNTLESS TIMES YOU HAVE MADE ME CRY AND SCOLDED ME FOR IT.

WHERE IS YOUR HEART?

no amount of apologies will ever suffice. you owe me too much.

2009-05-25T02:37:00.003+08:00

it's 2.37am..
yep i have school tomorrow and i'm supposed to wake up at 5.30.

talked to my dad from about 12 to 2?
while doing time tunnel 4 of course..
but... was listening to him most of the time...
talked about sooo many things
it's like i havent seen him lighten up in ages

talked about his younger days..
his regrets, achievements, stress and all that
things he wouldn't have told me if we weren't there at that exact time at that exact setting

remember how it was like to want to turn 18 when you were only 10?
wow.. now i'm near 18 and i dont think it seems all that great
yes i get to drink i get to do wilder stuffs
but...
the thing that bothers me is
why am i not looking forward to being 25 now that i'm 18?
is it because the future is so uncertain now?
and i couldn't see all that when i was 10 and looking forward to 18?
not really
i didn't know what lay ahead of me and i still looked forward to it
maybe...
that's what i really need to do now..

i believe that our future's all planned out and waiting for us to live it through...
yep and i dont think many out there agree with me.
BUT
given a chance to look at what will happen next time, be it my future husband, job and kids...
i'm quite sure i dont wanna know all that right now.
secretly... i'm still waiting for another surprise to jump right out at me ;)

woah that was alot of thinking for a time like that...
it's time i get out of thinking about how i compare to others and well.. any other stuffs regarding me me and more, me.
time i give a little more time to making each day count.
sounds a little too preachy
but it just made my life a whole lot more meaningful ;)

2009-05-18T21:49:00.003+08:00

i see you lying next to me. with words i thought i'd never speak.
awake and unafraid. asleep or dead?

sometimes i wish i could save you. and there's so many things that i want you to know.
i won't give up till it's over.

now that it's all said and done. i can't believe you were the one.

it starts in my toes makes me crinkle my nose. wherever you go i always know.

you can put the blame on me.

if you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today. if you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way. if you are not mine then why does your heart return my call. if you are not mine would i have strength to stand at all.

all my life, i pray for someone like you.

gotta let the light shine on me.

i'll be your strength. i'll give you hope. keeping your faith when it's gone.

just believe me girl someday i'll pay the bills with this guitar.

i give my hand to you with all my heart. can wait to live my life with you can't wait to start. you and i can never be apart.

i believe for you and me the sun will shine one day.

everlasting like the sun. live forever for the moment.

i need you now. so i'll hold on to it. don't you let it pass you by.
it's the state of bliss you think you're dreaming. it's the happiness inside that you're feeling. it's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry.

why do stars fall down from the sky.

see the dreams we left behind. and i'm glad cos' i was blessed to get to have you in my life.

and we'll linger on...

ohhh all the classic love songs i'm still in love with..
always an escape from everything else around me
i should listen to them more often =)

2009-04-15T00:07:00.002+08:00

will you ever step back and take a look at all the damage that you've done
all that damage waiting to pounce right back on to you.

i've said i want to remember this
but not this way.

dont question me about what i've done to improve the situation
because this is all your work and no one's gonna help you clean up this mess.

i hope your conscience doesn't keep you awake at night.

all i've gotta learn is to let go. things are not gonna change for the better. at least not soon. so what better way to comfort myself than to leave these things behind?

2009-04-06T22:02:00.001+08:00

if only i were.....
if only i could...

if only.

but i'm just a failure.

Welcome to my life

2009-01-19T21:23:00.002+08:00

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you

Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No one ever lied straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy
but I'm not gonna be okay

Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like
what it's like

2009-01-08T22:28:00.000+08:00

oh dear school's gonna start school's gonna start school's gonna start =C

2008-12-28T12:08:00.002+08:00

received alot of christmas cards yesterday!
thanks guys.. for the little stuffs inserted with the cards =D
love you all!

got this froggy shower kit thingy from yt and ym!
yay it's GREEN and has a mirror. =P
(isn't that enough said)
erms... spongebob (musclebob buffpants) soft toy from yuteng
thanks!
food box from you!
okiee.. i'll try to eat more=P
lots of candy canes too!
hmm havent met up with shinyi and gang...
and xinyi!
havent given them their prezzies too
hope i see them soon

YAY GANG OUTING

okayy another year will be gone just like that (clicks fingers like i always do)
and here's 2009!
not really looking forward to it..

been to all the trainings i could and still have no idea why i'm not improving.
damn.
yepp back to the gym

hmm.. let's get me started on my new year resolutions.

*i'm not gonna spend so much time on neopets anymore!
(a little difficult though =P)
*i'll get back to pariss for another round of crabs and scallops
*spend even lesser money on clothes
(really cut down on that this year)
*study study study..
*try not to miss any trainings
*another year of champions in a div vb
*get out of singapore the day As end
*Queensland, Australia with Xinyi, Italy with you, Bintan with classmates!

okie.. this is turning into a Wishlist, instead of my Resolutions. 0.0
cant think of anything now since i'm still in the festive mood.
oh wells, i'll get back to it.
when i actually do =P

yay fireworks on new year's eve =D
and let's hope it'll be a blast after that too!

loveloves

2008-12-27T12:16:00.003+08:00

CHRISTMAS WAS A BLAST.
or at least christmas eve was!

went science centre in the day =P
trust me it's GREAT fun when you go with someone as retarded as we are
eww except the hissing cockroaches
we thought we'll take forever there...
but finished walking the entire thing in like... 2-3 hours??!!
who says you cant have fun while learning??

erm.. went back home cos we were starving ourselves the entire day
and didn't have energy to do anything else.
left for marina square in the evening!
okie i'm SORRY we were almost late.
girls just cant leave the house!
i dont know why =P seriously

had our dinner at Pariss international seafood buffet
okiee it WAS FREAKING EXPENSIVE
but we agreed it was worth it cos
the abalone and crabs and scallops were damn good
we were downing them like there's no tomorrow
AND they were fresh too =P
SOMEBODY didn't get a diarrhea this time!

after dinner we decided to let our food digest properly
and so we walked to suntec.
sky garden was wet cos it was a cold, damp day =/
but the weather was really cold and nice =D
left for home on a 14!

received my presents =D
YAY I LIKE MY FOOD BOX ALOT ALOT ALOT
well.. the rest of the night was just. A BLAST ;)

thanks for this wonderful christmas...
iloveyou.

2008-11-28T20:50:00.002+08:00

hello people!
i havent blogged in AGES
=P

anyways...
went to Vietnam for an overseas service trip from 9th nov to 18th nov.
one word to describe it all.
WOW

hahaha
i shall try and remember what happened there!
oh yes.. PICTURES are in the link on the left...
under "picture me", then "OCIP Vietnam"
yep i know.. it's been like.. 10 days since i came back
i was just too lazy to blog cos uploading the pictures itself was already killing me =P

Day 1:
flight at 5 am, changi airport terminal 1, row 4
sis and wang sent me off =D
sooo exciting..
with gwee and tricia
boarded the plane
slept. and slept. and.. slept.
it was 7 in the morning for goodness sake
arrived at Tan Son Ngat Airport
Met Ngoc, Mai, Le! =D
had breakfast at Pho 24, chicken noodles and twister
(which everybody hadn't heard of and allll wanted to try)
bus ride...
had lunch at this really cool restaurant with really cool view
seafood, rice noodles, veggies, giant rice ball! =P
bus ride...
ferry terminal place.
got stuck "behind bars", laughing at ducks 0.0
took a ferry
reached ben tre, quite disturbed at the scene.. hmm..
bus ride...
Dong Khoi Hotel
dinner at restaurant...

Day 2:
breakfast - bread and eggs =D (yay i can remember)
bus ride...
reached Hung Nhuong Primary School!
began our first lesson on alphabets A-P
kids were sooo cute
lunch + stone
second lesson!
bus ride...
dinner...

Day 3:
breakfast - pork leg with rice noodle
bus ride...
third lesson on alphabets Q-Z
kids were sooo cute
lunch + stone
fourth lesson!
bus ride...
dinner...

oh oh oh i have to say this
i hated our toilet in the hotel!!
hahaha...
but tricia and i were soooo amused.
the flush wouldn't flush properly so i was kinda having a REALLY hard time flushing down what went into the toilet bowl.
it was sooo pissifying tricia and i decided to ask someone to help us unclog the toilet bowl.
and fair enough..
the flush was.. BETTER. =D

Day 4:
Breakfast - bread, jam, cheese, butter
bus ride...
fifth lesson on shapes
kids were sooo cute
lunch + stone
sixth lesson
bus ride...
dinner...

oh oh oh we had lunch in a house there...
homecooked food!
it was soooo delicious.
hahah gwee tricia and i wanted to award her with the best cook award. =P
but there was quite alot of beef in the dishes..
so i kinda could only take alot of dietary fibre.
but thanks to that i had a smooth trip
HAHAH (trying to not sound crude)

Day 5:
Breakfast - bread and siewmai
bus ride...
lacquering! painted the tables..
hahaha... quite fun =D
but i got alot of paint on myself!
yepp clumsy mee
so typical rightt
lunch + stone
sitting in for lesson on basic phrases and numbers
kids were sooo cute
volleyball game with the staff...
hahah so funn
and everybody was like.. zai
seriously. ;)
bus ride...
dinner...

hahaha okiee angela and tricia had their secret adventures on certain nights
and gwee and i were left to rot ourselves.
LOL
but oh wells..
we had our secret adventures too!
hahaha
so funn
but i taught angela how to play taitee!!
cindy and nikki came over on one night too!
i taught nikki bridge YAY

Day 6:
Breakfast - bread and eggs
bus ride
second last lesson on body parts, animals and numbers
kids were sooo cute
lunch + monkey with the kids! sooo funnnn
the rest of the team left for somewhere else..
programmes stayed back to teach the afternoon session kids =D
we just couldn't bear to leave heh.
last lesson with the kids...
haiys.
ceremony of completion of courtyard...
dinner in the school with the staff
pictures!
bus ride...
back to hotel.
sighs.
packing...

Day 7:
Breakfast - bread and eggs
left Dong Khoi Hotel
bus ride...
Mekong river tour
quite cool! seriously!
coconut candy, fruits, honey and tea
lunch...
coconut...
back to Ho Chi Minh, Rainbow Hotel
went out to walk in the city
dinner...
cards and crapping in Gwee's room
hahaha... angela went to have a secret adventure with tricia!
yuteng and lijie came over
played guitar sang songs watch tv

Day 8:
Breakfast - noodles
Cu Chi Tunnels!
coolest sightseeing place we went in this trip =D
looked at some exhibition stuffs...
crawled through the tunnels..
went all the way! =D
hahaha quite surprising for my claustrophobia rightt...
oh wells at least it was really interesting!
tea and tapioca...
lunch...
back to hotel.
went out to walk walk
dinner
water puppet show!
soo interesting.. and i still have no idea at all how they control the puppets 0.0
back to hotel
yuteng and lijie came over to write reflections
until like 3.30am?!
haha trust me we were distracted enough to write 1 paragraph in 1 hour.
HAHA
dieded in the morning cos of lack of sleep though =P

Day 9:
Breakfast - Bread and eggs
War remnants museum, Reunification Palace
Lunch
Ben Thanh market for shopping!
walked with angela tricia and gwee...
ate yoghurt at some restaurant while waiting for time to be up cos apparently we shop quite fast and we are very decisive people
back to hotel to change and stuffs
off to YMCA Vietnam Headquarters
cultural night and buffet dinner
caught in flood 0.0
still went back to hotel though...
talked and snacked through the night...
didn't sleep heh.

oh oh oh!
yay there was an angel-mortal game throughout the entire trip!
my mortal was Tor and...
yep i only had 1 letter from him cos he found out i was his angel and refused to reply anymore -.-
yay my angel was yuteng
and at least we still wrote after i found out he was my angel. HAHA.
hmm kinda my escape everyday after a day's work, other than phonecalls back home.
yepp... =D
yay angel!
hahah but i could've been smarter and found out my angel sooner then can take more pictures. hur.
oh wells.
oh yes. erm. please go learn how to differentiate a leopard from a cheetah
HAHA
the one in the person's office is a leopard. 0.0

Day 10:
Breakfast - bread and eggs
bus ride...
Tan Son Ngat airport again...
quite alot of things happened...
huiqi wasn't feeling well, david almost lost his passport, coco got stuck at customs
oh dear...
but at least allll of us came back in one piece =D
GREAT.
parted at changi airport...
quite sad really.
didn't want the trip to end just like that...
sigh.

loveloves to OCIPVietnam08! we rock.

but actually.. i was really glad to be back home too...
guess it was enough of seeing the world for now..
i'd be contented to stay in Singapore for a while longer...

really really glad when i saw you at the airport =)

went to sentosa today!
with shinyi zijia jiahui and kaihui!
yayyy shinyi and gang rocks my socks! hahaha
pictures will be up very very soon in the link to the left too!
hahhaa...
and hoorays to our forbidden city 0.0
haha it was soo cute
i like the bridge the most! =D
love you guys and can't wait for our christmas dinner together!
=D

i'm a happy girl =D

2008-11-09T06:13:00.002+08:00

heyy guys..
i'm off to vietnam today!
yays

be back in 10 days and i'll update again then!
till 18th nov!

byes~
i'll miss you...

2008-10-20T10:46:00.008+08:00

this blog has caused enough misunderstandings.
maybe it's finally time to close it...
i'll seriously consider that..

i'm home at 10.50 on a monday morning.
and.. i realised sabby didn't have school
reached home... and started talking...
heyy sabby...
i'm sorry but i have to say this
enough is enough
i dont think he owes you any explanation at all
if you want to continue ignoring me and zhen
that's perfectly okayy
but i just wanna say i really didn't mean to scold you like that
neither did zhen
so please think it through...
and you can always talk to us if you feel like it.

i seriously want a motion-sensor phone!
it's fun
exactly the kind of idiot-proof games
idiots like me need =D
okiee i'm sooo much happier after talking to sabby now
will be back in school at 3.30 for training later
now i need to catch my Zzzs.

2008-10-15T20:30:00.002+08:00

new blogskin!
okayy more like i only changed the picture. =P
erm.. small images within the picture courtesy from deviantart
and photoshop brushes from brushesdownload
the rest are kinda...
MY OWN WORK =D
hahhaa. i think it's very... me
=D
yay i'm happy!

2008-10-13T21:52:00.004+08:00

i'm thinking... and. i'm frustrated.
i finally got what i was thinking all this while...
it kinda struck me just a while ago.
it's that i'm feeling so insecure.
yes.. that's the exact word
i dont even know how i came to feel this way.
dont get me wrong...
i believe you
but it's the feeling that both of you just cant let something go.
i've tried.. trust me i have..
i've tried to not let myself think so much
but every time i see her...
that's what comes to my mind first.
maybe.. that's why i'm scared.
yeah.. things are starting to make sense.

that's a WRONG word to use.
because it's overestimating yourself.
if you really do so,
why dont i see it in people around you?
trust me.
you've hurt more than you think.
so fuck out of this.

2008-09-22T22:36:00.002+08:00

this post shall be dedicated to my darling little brother
JELLY!
okayy so this is my family's little baby..
okayy he's not very little.. 3 years plus already.
jellybean toh wang wang =D
we got him 3 years ago.. still a baby
and he's full adult size now
but... well he hasn't grown much
HEH
okayy he's a mini yorkshire terrier..
iknow.. yorkshires are already TINY.
jelly is still
MINI.
hahaha...
well you've gotta see him to know how cute he is!
cutest little dog you'll ever ever see =D

i love you jelly dear!
*mwahh

2008-09-17T21:01:00.003+08:00

I HEREBY DECLARE THAT
I MISS YOU TOO HUIYI!
can we meet up soon please please please
and we are so gonna hang out alot after promos =D
GOOD LUCK FOR YOUR EXAMS.
we are oh so gonna score well

what do i do when i'm stressed!

1: scream into my pillow
i often end up getting saliva on it so. yep. you can stay away from it
okiee i used to have this reallly cute red hello kitty pillow
and that'll be my favourite one to scream into
but. it kinda got really dirty
and my dad couldn't stand it
so he threw it away
=C
i'm still missing it right now

2: eat ice cream
trust me.
nothing works better than ice cream
at least for me =P
it's the best thing i can ever get!
*hinthint
i scream for ice cream!
haha.. okiee so let's list down my favourite flavours!
(this list is so not going to end)
bnj new york super fudge chunk(with a cookie cookie sundae), haagan dazs belgium choco and vanilla, swirl cheese, venezia yoggi, swenson's sticky chewy choco, mochi yam, crunchies, vinetta double choco, .... (do i really have to complete this??)

3: sing OUT LOUD.
hahahahaha
yay at least i have someone complimenting my voice
okayy so when i get serious, i think i can sing well enough to not shatter eardrums!
but... you dont wanna hear me when i'm trying to make weird noises =P

4: sleep
sleeping's always the great escape
but guess what?
when you wake up..
the stress gets even worse.
so... nah..
i dont do this very often

5: yoga
hmm.. i know.. weird.
but sometimes i do go into my basic yoga positions.
trust me..
those who havent tried yoga before,
it works!
to those who are suaning it right now
hahaha.. you can try it
bet you cant hold at any position for more than a minute.
boring? no.
for those who are hyperactive....
it's even worse.
but.. it's always worth a try =D
and sabby! stop niaoing me.
I CAN STAY AT HIGH ANCHOR TREE FOR 10 MINUTES.
BEAT THAT.
=P

so during ct session last friday..
mrs toh made us do this exercise..
like...
tell people what you do when you're stressed
these are what i came up with!
seriously,
it gets more and more hilarious every time i think about what i wrote.
like all these are so...
me.
heh

anyways.. i have a mini wishlist right now =D
(okayy fine it's not so mini)
sony ericsson X1
new pencil case
sneakers (everlast!)
new lappy (my old vaio is dying)
LOTS of cute stuffs
stickers!
adidas shorts
f21 babydoll dress
new heels
sandals
monkey socks (i lost my old pair)
ringssss =D

looking forward now
i wont care about what others say
they become oh so insignificant when i focus on what's important.
so say what you want.
i wont give a damn anymore.

2008-09-11T20:31:00.002+08:00

September 11th...

what a day...

NEW YORK - Relatives of victims killed at the World Trade Center arrived at dawn Thursday for ceremonies that will commemorate the seventh anniversary of the Sept. 11 attacks.
(yahoo news)

kinda makes people think alot.
i remember that day, 7 years ago...
my entire family was glued to the television and news throughout the night.

you know these ceremonies that commemorate the anniversary of sept 11,
some believe that they are actually to help the relatives of victims
by gathering all those who lost their loved ones

but yahoo news actually questioned:
Some mourners wondered if the remembrance would, or should, continue as it has indefinitely.
(yahoo news)

because some replies went:
"We've kept it alive, and perhaps kept it alive too long," said Charles Wolf, whose wife, Katherine, was killed at the World Trade Center. "How many times do you reopen the wounds?"
(yahoo news)

well i found this to be really thought-provoking...

2008-09-07T13:54:00.002+08:00

yesterday was MAF!
quite cool actually...
saw alot of seniors.. people.. friends..
=))
programmes were pretty boring at first
well
was stoning all the way until the grand light up
BEAUTIFUL
i admire the councillors. alot.
hhahaha...
well those who didn't make it there..
certainly missed a good show!
at least i know hc certainly looks nice at night

we had 1hr 10mins after the performances to stone and wait for mass dance and song session
walked around school...
went to the grand stand
kinda nice place at night
quite cooling (well yearh it rained soon after that BUT)
have to admit it was kinda eerie actually
thanks to someone who said that place was super haunted at night
THANKS AH
okayy la..
at least i had my fill of hitting you with the balloon you bought me =D
i should carry around stuffs to hit you with more often
whoo~
okiee
anyways..
were staring at people playing with sparklers
so preeeeetty.
hahhaa
but they were making alot of noise. hur.
oh wells..
went back to the celebrations

hahaha
can't believe i did the mass dances!
and sang like nobody's business
okayy
i miss the OG days
SO MUCH.
so much so that... it's sad to think about it.
oh wells.
people move on.

this reminds me..
i was watching meet the robinsons this morning
GREAT MOVIE.
i especially remember this:
"sometimes you just have to let go of the past, and just move on"

and i'm still at it....

2008-09-06T22:00:00.000+08:00

Well

You done done me

And you bet I felt it

I tried to be chill

But you're so hot that I melted

I fell right through the cracks

And now I'm trying to get back

Before the cool done run out

I'll be giving it my bestestA

nd nothing's going to stop me

But divine intervention

I reckon it's again my turn

To win some or learn some

But I won't hesitate no more, no more

It cannot wait, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me

Open up your plans and damn you're free

I look into your heart

And you'll find love love love love

Listen to the music of the moment

People dance and sing

We're just one big family

And it's our God-forsaken right

To be loved loved loved loved loved

So I won't hesitate no more, no more

It cannot wait, I'm sure

There's no need to complicate

Our time is short

This is our fate

I'm yours

Do you want to come on?

Scooch on over closer dear

And i will nibble your ear

I've been spending way too long

Checking my tongue in the mirror

And bending over backwards

Just to try to see it clearer

But my breath fogged up the glass

And so I drew a new face and I laughed

I guess what I be saying is

There ain't no better reason

To rid yourself of vanities

And just go with the seasons

It's what we aim to do

Our name is our virtue

But I won't hesitate no more, no more

It cannot wait, I'm yours

Open up your mind and see like me

Open up your plans and damn you're free

I look into your heart and you'll find

That the sky is yours

So please don't

There's no need

There's no need to complicate

'Cause our time is short

This is our fate

I'M YOURS.

I'm yours

~ Jason Mraz

specially dedicated to you...

i won't hesitate no more

2008-09-01T21:39:00.012+08:00

Stick with you

~ Pussycatdolls

I don't want to go another day

So I'm telling you exactly what is on my mind

Seems like everybody is breaking up

Throwing their love away

I know I got a good thing right here
That's why I say

Hey
Nobody's going to love me better

I must stick with you forever

Nobody's going to take me higher

I must stick with you

You know how to appreciate me

I must stick with you my baby

Nobody ever made me feel this way

I must stick with you

I don't want to go another day
So I'm telling you exactly what is on my mind

See the way we ride in our private lives

Ain't nobody getting in between

I want you to know that you're the only one for me

And I say

Nobody's going to love me better

I must stick with you forever

Nobody's going to take me higher

I must stick with you

You know how to appreciate me

I must stick with you my baby

Nobody ever made me feel this way

I must stick with you

And now

Ain't nothing else I can need

And now

I'm singing 'cause you're so, so into me

I got you

We'll be making love endlessly

I'm with you

Baby, you're with me

So don't you worry about

People hanging around

They ain't bringing us down

I know you and you know me

And that's all that counts

So don't you worry about

People hanging around

They ain't bringing us down

I know you and you know me

And that's why I say

Nobody's going to love me better

I must stick with you forever

Nobody's going to take me higher

I must stick with you

You know how to appreciate me

I must stick with you my baby

Nobody ever made me feel this way

I must stick with you

i'd give anything...

to make all these nonsense stop

so that i'll freeze in the moment

of your embrace.

to never have to care about anyone else

or never have to be judged

wouldn't you want that too?

remember: it's never too late to know that you've changed your mind.

hate the way you speak bitch.

2008-08-25T22:11:00.001+08:00

you know...
sometimes...
you need to just stop looking at what other people haven't done for you.
because most of the time...
you haven't done it for them in the first place.
Guess what.. you don't have the right to expect anything from anyone else.
so stop being a spoiled-brat
and start growing up.
not all things must go your way.
in fact, almost nothing should be.

2008-08-23T19:54:00.003+08:00

22/08/2008

thanks for telling me what you did...

hope you're satisfied with my answer.

and i hope you'll understand...

that this is more of my problem.

but well i made a promise =)

that day will come.

2008-08-19T22:16:00.009+08:00

Hello!
okiee my blog is totally dead
and i'm finally blogging!
yayyy
now i have to start from wayyyy long time ago.

August 8th...
School had national day celebrations...
quite horrible leh.
hmms.. preferred Nanyang one..
at least there was a year
where we had sozzled,
our live band,
play the national day songs!
those were GREAT.
anyways...
during the celebrations in the hall
sang alot of the nat day songs with tricia heiyi charis
SO FUN.
That's us during the celebrations
SO CUTE RIGHT.
after school...
went back home to wait for
SOMEONE
to be done....
slept abit by the way (amazing that i can remember these details)
and we met to go watch love guru!
hahahaha
what a freaaaaking sick show
MY DEAR JUSTIN TIMBERLAKE
my future husband!
the movie totally ruined my impression of him.
okiee i admit he was
SEXY. =P
erm.. saw damn alot of people at cine??!!
wth
YOU CHOOSE DE RIGHT.
anyways.. oh wells.
had dinner at..
thai express =D
i lovvvveeee soft shell crabs =D
That's my dinner to the right..
black pepper soft shell crab
and his to the left...
curry soft shell crab
NOW WE'RE BOTH IN LOVE WITH SOFT SHELL CRAB
yays soft shell crabs!
okayy i'm going crazy
day ended quite well..
quite cute day out =))

Beijing Olympics Opening Ceremony!
okayy so i was watching the teams come out..
whoo~ love lijiawei still
and when china was walking out..
i was like:
are they gonna finish walking soon
cos their teams are like...
and endless stream of people
heh
but i LOVE the beacon lighting ceremony
=D
greatest design by zhang yimou.. rightt??

August 9th...
was another cute day =D
met xinyi for kox at marina square..
WHOO!
that was damnnn shuang
after dont know how long never step inside kbox.
after that was fireworks outside marinaboth of us before the fireworks...
i think this picture was taken very nicely!
with the lights and all that.
=D
hahaha.. boy were the both of us touched
when we saw the fireworks...
i guess at that moment
all we could do was immerse ourselves in that splendid display of
magnificent blooms...
it was really fantastic..
though i watch it every year live..
it never fails to touch me.
Here's a video taken live...
for those who missed it.
mind you it was my lousy 6.0 megapixel camera that took these
greatt shots.
=D
hahahaha...
me and xinyi were amazed at how clear these videos were
yes i have more..
those who want them can come ask me for it
=) i have videos of the jets too!
the day ended with both of us frantically looking for a way to get home amidst the crowd.
and now i know how to get home
whenever i go watch fireworks,
without having to squeeze like mad
and turn out like prata at the end!
=DD
yays
HAPPY BIRTHDAY XINYI
LOVE YOU bestie!!!!

Sunday was spent at home watching olympics
nothing much...

Monday!
met wangyi and huiyi
at MS to study.
hahaha.. quite funn!
both of them are like...
SUPER DUPER UBER funny and entertaining.
heh
YAYS WANG JIA YI (as huiyi calls it.. i personally think it's hilarious)
(i'll prefer the cookie monster gang or the small eye trio though)
=P
yayyy we rock.
okiee.. dinner with wangyi at
shokudo jap pasta??
mwahahahaha
NICE SOFT SHELL CRAB AGAIN
nice time after that...
trip home was funny...
and...
sleepy.
zzZZzzz...

After that was pretty uneventful..
mugging EVERY DAY after school
haiys.
hope i can keep it up!
weds at macs...
other days in school...
your friends are scary...
including you yun...

okiee then came... friday.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JUNHAO!
hope you like the present from tricia heiyi charis and me =))
mugged at macs.
had dinner at bukit timah food center cos i've recently
devoted myself to trying to go budget
to help YOU save money too
so that when hols start i have more shopping trips to go on
=P
went home... funny.. still.
cant stop laughing. SERIOUSLY.

August 16th...
saturday spent mugging.
for math test.
we are sooo gonna get As =D
erm.. jurong library...

i think this picture taken is REALLY GREATT
like superrrr superrr pretty.
okiee i've decided sepia hides flaws and makes pictures MEGA PRETTY! =)
erm..
went to my house so that i could get changed..
went to city hall with him.
he went to oschool for dance (you go man~)
and i shopped around alone for an hour plus..
I LOVE SHOPPING ALONE! =D
you get to like.. do stuffs at your own pace...
lovellyyyy
okiee.. he came back to join me after that..
and we had dinner at this weird chinese restaurant.
heh
that had a cool design for seats =D
greatt dinner
MEGA FULL
nice dessert =)
trip home was...
funny...
and... sleepy.
zzzZZZzzz...

sunday spent mugging + table tennis finals!
sooo coool...
i LOVE feng tianwei and zhang yining. woots~
but... too bad singapore lost.
but it's already like... DAMN GOOD ACHIEVEMENT.
FINALLY.
singapore's flag is raised...
THAT. was the feeling of being proud...
proud...
to be a Singaporean. =))

okiee... monday... yesterday...
August 18th...
math test.
BET i did better than class tests.
which i predict will turn out to be 3/25 cos
i spent the first 10 minutes trying to remember what the hell
formula to use for volume.
i totally had a blank out.
that feeling was...
kinda scary.
heng it didn't happen in lecture test!
yayyss hope i get an A.
then went home early..
caught abit of beach volley.
GO CHINA! =))

August 19th.. TODAY
was spent...
trying to survivea freaking long day which ends at 3.30
sadded.
Doctor Richard Arnold is leaving.
BUT HE'S OUR BEST TEACHER SO FAR.
=C
man i'm sad.
i'm so gonna screw GP.
after school was mugging at venezia...
quite nice place to mug...
and certainly got damn alot of stares due to SOMEONE'S spasticness.
mwahahahaha...
okiee...

THIS IS A REALLY LONG POST.
for those to lasted THAT long...
hoorays for you...
cos i spent like... 45 mins typing this.
hahahahaah
cool.

okiees...
i shall go sleep soon...
gonna wake up at 4 again tomorrow.
to do stuffs.
byes!

oh yes.. please check back frequently on this post.. cos... i have a feeling i missed out some stuffs
and i will add them as soon as i realise =D

Take each day as you find it,
if things go wrong dont mind it
cos each day leaves behind it
a chance to start a new.

i've found protection in your grace.

2008-08-05T22:23:00.002+08:00

i can never stand it.
when anyone doubts my passion for volleyball.
it's not like when you don't see it
i don't do it.
before you ever criticise me again
think.
are you even qualified yourself,
to do so.

2008-08-04T21:50:00.002+08:00

saturday was....
FUN FUN FUN FUN!
shopping!
got a pair of nice white shorts
gosh i really needed that pair alright
then it was more walking... walking... walking...
ahh it's getting more and more difficult for me to find nice clothes that i like
probably due to my ever-growing body size. =P
ahhh i seriously need to lose weight.
went to sakura for DINNER BUFFET.
yes talk about the irony here

anywaysss
the buffet was like
the greatest dinner i've had in
forever?
heh...
i bet you've never seen me eat THAT much before
I LOVE THE YAM PASTE
i was totally looking at it lovingly while eating =D *quotes heiyi
lovelovelove sakura
i should seriously go for more buffets
since i get mega high and happy after eating so much
=P

anyways.. after that was...
pretty bad.
i just... cant describe it mans.
*jiayin hopes you're alright =)

oh wells. i still had fun ;)
bought stickers!!!
CUUUTE stickers.
yay!
they'll go into my collection!
i'm seriously childhood-deprived
hmms.

okayy sunday was
full scale mugging for chem
and i still think i wont do well
so yep
i'm a lousy mugger. =C

today's test.
i kinda blanked out
then got reaaallly pissed that thermodynamics didn't come out much in structured.
BOO.

okayy i started emoing in school today... like all of a sudden
dont know what got to me
but i thought it was quite bad.
hmms ohwells
tomorrow will be a better day! (i hope)

i cant wait for the weekends to come mans..
friday half day!
maybe dark knight??
saturday CELEBRATE XINYI'S BIRTHDAY
loveloves dear! =D

we're gonna watch fireworks together!
hahaha..
xinyi i hope you had a great day today kayys
HAPPY BIRTHDAY AND I LOVE YOU!

okiee time to get back to work
i have SOOO much to do today and i'm still here blogging
wth
okies! byes...

anyways... HATE THE WAY YOU SPEAK BITCH.

2008-08-01T22:19:00.004+08:00

hello!
today's a pretty weird day. hmms
mrs chua gave us early break from lessons.
heh since we had bio mock spa before that
by the time we got to math tutorial..
we were already dying and
AM SO GLAD YOU NOTICED IT MRS CHUA.
thanks!

suffered minor gastrics..
willed it away =P

after school was swirl
ice cream!
berry yoghurt and hazelnut chocolate is the loveeee <3

played ludo(????!!!!)

and reversi

MWAHAHAH i own you in reversi

he said he hasn't lost in a game before

and i WON HIM.

but my god i seriously thought i sucked cos

everytime i play with my cousin or sis i'll lose =C

but i won him!!! yayy...

i was white and he was black...

can you see the number of whites on the gameboard

oh yeah ;)

dinner at adam road was...

uneventful.
couldn't finish my food (as usual)
just didn't feel like eating
but the rojak was slightly better =)
still.didnt.feel.like.eating.
FYI newsflash : i'm NOT anorexic
dinner at adam road food center was...

oh wells.
i realised i should train myself to be immune to tickles. =P
okiee this post is random but talked to nikki just now in the afternoon
made me think alot since i got home and...
listened to this song over and over and over again.
and cried. again. when can i stop?

其实还爱你
~阿沁

我讨厌阴天的风冷的那么刺痛
只有你能够抚平所有的寂寞
昨天的风筝在角落被谁丢到了路口
我很不想让你找到离开的理由

每一夜闭上眼睛我看到了恶梦
你微笑但是旁边的人不是我
天空切开一道裂缝直接刻到我心中
不想装做脆弱也不想爱得懦弱

其实我非常爱你不想失去你
难道我没有权利说我不愿意
你给了他的吻
虽然只有余温
可知道我多渴望抓住你的心
我知道他很爱你你怕他伤心
我每天假装开心害怕你离去
可不可以忍心求求你不要去
藏在我心里最后一句其实还爱你

每一夜闭上眼睛我看到了恶梦
你微笑但是旁边的人不是我
天空挤开一道裂缝直接刻到我心中
不想装做脆弱也不想爱得懦弱

其实我非常爱你不想失去你
难道我没有权利说我不愿意
你给了他的吻
虽然只有余温
可知道我多渴望抓住你的心
我知道他很爱你你怕他伤心
我每天假装开心害怕你离去
可不可以忍心求求你不要去
藏在我心里最后一句其实还爱你

可不可以忍心求求你不要去

藏在我心里最后一句其实还爱你

2008-07-26T22:18:00.002+08:00

nobody said it was easy....
but you've just got to do it.
=D
yesterday was FUNNN
apollo I SCREAM FOR ICE CREAM
i ate like... 4 cups of ice cream??!!
my goodness our class had 2 one litre packs and
1 SIX LITRE BUCKET of ice cream
GOODNESS
i need to start full scale diet
hehs

after that was MORE FUN
cooked pasta
(goodness gracious can we cook something ELSE next time)
played monopoly!
mega retarded CAN.
and my mom thought we were drinking wine 0.0
it's sparkling water laaa
played cards
I OWN YOU IN SPEED
played alot of music...
tortured jelly
hmm.. kinda concludes the day at my house..
=P
loveloves huiyi and wangyi!

2008-07-24T17:33:00.003+08:00

hi!!!

i just got home from school.
today's a looooong loooong day
6 hours of lessons!
with an hour and a half break smacked in the middle
i actually survived.
WOW

ate chocolate!
cocoa trees sale thingy in school..
trust me their rittersport is LOOOVELYY
and absolutely D.E.licious
i bought this butter biscuit one that i've never actually seen before
and i love the rum and raisin too!
you can totally get drunk just by smelling the rum =D

that reminds me..
i havent been drinking for a long time =C
miss the feeling actually
SOMEONE PLEASE DATE ME.
i feel like drinking. =P

anyways...
i was just thinking bout' my sister..
I TOTALLY MISS HER
oh wells i bet she's having lotsa fun in germany now
i'm so jealous sis!

=D that's me and my sis a few years back =P
i think she's suuuuper pretty

that's me elsa and my sis!

ahh sis is in germany
and elsa is in australia...

now i'm stuck alone in Singapore =C
i miss them sooo much
miss the shopping trips, the kbox and everything else
please come back soon!

okayy this post is pretty random actually
but
ohwells.

tomorrow's half day =D
ad-hoc event after school
i SCREAM for ICE CREAM
cant wait ;)

ice cream is the <33

and after that..
huiyi and wang are gonna come to my house
oh boy i hope we dont mess it up
see you guys tomorrow!

loveloves

2008-07-22T00:32:00.002+08:00

i cant believe what i did just now.
walked in the rain when i came home just now.
got down 2 bus stops before my stop..
walked all the way home in the rain
was entirely soaked when i got home.
and fell asleep on my bedroom floor with my wet clothes still on
and now i'm terribly sick.

it happened.
what if it happens to me sometime soon.
i wont be able to take it.
no...

2008-07-20T15:28:00.002+08:00

and i see you lying next to me.

with words i thought i'd never speak.

i'm awake, but am afraid. not asleep, but dead.

好傻，好傻...
我到底做错了什么！！！

2008-07-20T14:00:00.001+08:00

谢谢你让我爱过你
~s.h.e.

感觉天气冷了
就加件毛衣
而不是急着躲进
某个人的怀里
这么简单的常识
我竟然忘记
直到你离去
才恢复记忆

还可以呼吸
心跳也还规律
只除了寂寞
它还不肯马上就平息
相恋和失恋
如果说都需要练习
一次学会两种
也算好事情

谢谢你教会我
爱需要两颗心
谢谢你示范了
什么人该放弃
谢谢你提醒我
痛会唤醒勇气
谢谢你曾让我这样的
爱过你

只要睁开眼睛
就有好风景
再不用苦苦等你
偶尔的好心情
这种简单的快乐
比玫瑰美丽
我相信伤心
会慢慢痊愈

谢谢你教会我
爱需要两颗心
谢谢你示范了
什么人该放弃
谢谢你提醒我
痛会唤醒勇气
谢谢你曾让我这样的
爱过你~

2008-07-16T21:02:00.002+08:00

hurtt.

sometimes.. it just can't be helped.

2008-07-14T22:12:00.002+08:00

oh it's what you do to me...
不知名的心酸
不应该这样的,不应该,不应该...
just so you know, this feeling's taking control of me. and i cant help it...
promos...
THEY'RE COMING SOON
WTH.
i swear i'm gonna start early
and i'm not gonna let my grades suck again.
i've had enough.
i'm not gonna let myself do it again.

why am i feeling this way?
i cant let it happen again.
thought you should know, i tried my best to let go
got back my GP today
wtf
WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME.

oh wells...
i've gotta freaking work harder =C

another turning point
the fork's stuck in the road.

2008-07-11T23:11:00.002+08:00

heyy...
i wu yuan wu gu emo-ed again just now
started throwing things around..
shouted..
cried..
i guess i know exactly why.
i dont know.. i've been saying i'm okayy... am i really?
i hope i am...
i dont want people to ask what's wrong. i'm done explaining.
anyways.. went to swirl with wang after school today.
i guess i really needed that relaxation.
but the ice cream was great
still love the cheese one!
and.. played speed(with uno cards), pick-up sticks (what the hell), scrabble (=P)
one hell crap of an afternoon and evening.. (yearh we stayed THAT long)
but trust me it was FUN.
well since when have you left the com
and gone back to these really classic games
hahaha...

i have lots to do this weekend!
dies. but there's still time to think about you
I'LL SURVIVE. =D

below's a song from MCR..
yep i just love them.
andd...
i am not afraid to walk this world alone.

Famous Last Words
~My Chemical Romance
~The black parade

Now I know
That I can't make you stay
But where's your heart
But where's your heart
But where's your

And I know
There's nothing I can say
To change that part
To change that part
To change

So many
Bright lights they cast a shadow
But can I speak
Well is it hard understanding
I'm incomplete

A life that's so demanding
I get so weak
A love that's so demanding
I can't speak

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Tell me if you stay I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home

Can you see
My eyes are shining bright
'Cause I'm out here
on the other side
Of a jet black hotel mirror
And I'm so weak

Is it hard understanding
I'm incomplete
A love that's so demanding
I get weak

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Tell me if you stay I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Tell me if you stay I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home

These bright lights have always blinded me
These bright lights have always blinded me
I say

I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I'd never speak
Awake
and unafraid
Asleep
or dead
'Cause I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I'd never speak
Awake
and unafraid
Asleep
or dead
'Cause I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I'd never speak
Awake
and unafraid
Asleep
or dead
'Cause I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I'd never speak
Awake
and unafraid
Asleep
or dead...

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Tell me if you stay I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone

Honey if you stay I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone

Honey if you stay I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home

2008-07-07T23:33:00.006+08:00

hello..

went ice skating with wang today...

he looks super gay in that picture dont you think =P

okayy i feel mean but

=D i had funnnn today!

thanks wang.

so much for our BUDGET =P

played arcade...

time crisis2 hoops and mariokart!

went to watch never back down too..

LOVE the show..

given that i LOVE martial arts.

well..

i'm really considering taking up professional muay thai now

i know it sounds stupid

but i'm really into it okayy oh that was hurtful

erm... it's just one whirl of events

i've decided happening all at one go

i'm gonna put allll my heart into trying to knock me down when i'm off guard

training and work from now on.

no more holiday mood. for a moment i really wished it would stop

i've gotta get back on track but come to think of it now

and start working. i guess it's just something i have to get through

it's kinda cos of my math before i'm ready to do anything else

YES i'm THAT affected

i'm so angry with what i allowed myself to do

with a grade that i hoped so highly for

damn it.

it's not gonna happen again.

not for me.

training's starting soon

yep you're right.

if it means so much to me

there must be more to it than that

i need to thank SO MANY PEOPLE so all i want to do now

for getting me through so much is to let go,

this period of time forget,

is just so and move on

crazy

things i've never expected before happened

people i've never expected to open up to

have helped me so much

and... life's got so much more planned for me

issues that i've never expected to become so impactful

caused me so much trouble and i'm not about to waste it all

oh wells...

i've gotta learn to face things with an open mind

=D better keep a friend than lose one to a relationship ;)

anyways..

i've gotta go..

school tomorrow.. boohoo

wonder how long will the next holiday take to come

so that i can go on a shopping spree.........

okiees BYE!

2008-07-03T21:22:00.002+08:00

it's the first time anyone has talked to me like that
i dont know...
i cant describe that feeling.
it's kinda like...
someone has punched me hard enough in the face
to make me wake up.

start blaming him?
i dont think i can do that.
maybe i should just stop everything here.
and..if it really is so hard.
i guess i can let it go.
it did seem like the world to me some time back.
but i think.. it's starting to fade.
and thanks to the people around me too.

i know what i did was stupid.
i didn't know what i was thinking then

i know you want me to promise i'll never do it again.
but i know what i'm capable of doing when i'm not thinking right
and i dont want to break another promise anymore
so i'm sorry.
i can only tell you i'll try
and trust me.
the next time these things happen,
i will think twice bout' what you said
i will.
thanks tricia.. thanks wangyi..

2008-06-29T02:33:00.001+08:00

oh lord...
i broke a promise.

2008-06-28T12:10:00.008+08:00

hello!

BLOCKS IS OVER

hahaha..

can you imagine..

it's only 15% of the overall grade

and we're mugging like there's no tomorrow.

promos prelims As HOWWW.

i'll probably die of stress way before the exam
oh wells.. no time to think about all these
COS I'M SO GONNA HAVE FUN
haha.. yesterday..after bio..
went to town with wang and huiyi!
SOOOO FUN
thank you guys SO MUCH yearh?
by the end of the day my cheeks were cramping up cos of too much laughing.
lol
erm.. well.. i watched 2 movies in 1 day!
get smart. and you dont mess with the zohan.
OH MY GOD IS THAT SECOND SHOW SICK IN THE ASS.
wth
i was like covering my eyes
hahahaha
oh yes
NEW YORK NEW YORK for dinner!i swear i gained 1 whole kg from that..
with the cheese fondue and cheesy chicken.
lol
AND CANDY FLOSS that made my lips go red.
how bout' our 3 cookie monsters man!

that's our cookie monsters on the nyny menu ;)

huiyi has the perfectly normal one.. i have the mouth wai diao one..

and wang has his erm. (how to describe?!) goldfish one.

hahahahahaha

yay i think this picture is cool!
that's my hand up there.. and wang's below!
haha.. my rings are nicer than his =P
yay rings are prettiful..
but i lost the one on my index finger yesterday..
think i left it in the toilet.
so sad. =C

okayys..
i think what you said really makes sense.
maybe that's what i should do too
makes my own life easier that way
less complications..
more people to hang around..
and obviously,
happier in the end =D

guys sorry if i appeared emo yesterday
really i was okayy!
=)
really enjoyed myself
loveloves guys!

yay i've been singing this song for the entire morning..

Over You

~ Chris Daughtry

Now that it's all said and done

I can't believe you were the one

To build me up and tear me down

Like an old abandoned house

What you said when you left

Just left me cold and out of breath

I fell too far, was in way too deep

Guess I let you get the best of me

Well, I never saw it coming

I should've started running

A long, long time ago

And I never thought I'd doubt you

I'm better off without you

More than you

more than you know

I'm slowly getting closure

I guess it's really over

I'm finally getting better

And now I'm picking up the pieces

I'm spending all of these years

Putting my heart back together

Cause the day I thought I'd never get through

I got over you

You took a hammer to these walls

Dragged the memories down the hall

Packed your bags and walked away

There was nothing I could say

And when you slammed the front door shut

A lot of others opened up

So did my eyes

so I could see

That you never were the best for me

Well, I never saw it coming

I should've started running

A long, long time ago

And I never thought I'd doubt you

I'm better off without you

More than you

more than you know

I'm slowly getting closure

I guess it's really over

I'm finally getting better

And now I'm picking up the pieces

I'm spending all of these years

Putting my heart back together

Cause the day I thought I'd never get through

I got over you

Well, I never saw it coming

I should've started running

A long, long time ago

And I never thought I'd doubt you

I'm better off without you

More than you

more than you know

Well, I never saw it coming

I should've started running

A long, long time ago

And I never thought I'd doubt you

I'm better off without you

More than you

more than you know

I'm slowly getting closure

I guess it's really over

I'm finally getting better

And now I'm picking up the pieces

I'm spending all of these years

Putting my heart back together

Well I'm putting my heart back together

Cause I got over you

Well I got over you

I got over you

Cause the day I thought I'd never get through

I got over you.

you dont know? or you dont care.

2008-06-26T18:58:00.003+08:00

i know i shouldn't be blogging now
bio paper is tomorrow!
oh heck.
why the hell do i think studying now will pull me out of the pool of U i'm drowning in?
damn.
i hope i get at least an S.
U would look so...
ugly =C

okayy i'm unhappy!
people are like playing now and i'm studying
BIO.
damn it.
esp. WANG
bsst. ahh! i'm so jealous of him man
he's like lan-ing now...
HOW LONG HAVENT I BEEN TO A LAN SHOP
wth
AHHH
okayy nevermind.. tomorrow is coming soon
i have less than 12 hours.(i think??)
hahahaha... oh shit.
right means i have less than 12 hours to mug like..
a mountain-high stack of...
whassat??

urgh.
okayy i've just made a decision..
hope i get through with it..
it's been bothering me since a loooong time ago.
well that's gotta see if i have the courage.

okayy BACK TO BIO
(i should seriously stop slacking..
i'm soooo wasting my time)

p.s. i love you.

2008-06-21T02:03:00.002+08:00

That's when i love you
~Aslyn

When you have to look away
When you don't have much to say
That's when I love you
I love you
Just that way

To hear you stumble when you speak
Or see you walk with two left feet
That's when I love you
I love you
Endlessly

And when your mad cause you lost the game
Forget I'm waiting in the rain
Baby I love you
I love you anyway

Cause here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Cause that's when I love you
When nothing u do can change my mind
The more I learn
The more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you
When I love you
No matter what

So when you turn to hide your eyes
Cause the movie
It made you cry
That's when I love you
I love you
A little more each time
And when you cant quite match your clothes
Or when you laugh at your own jokes
That's when I love you
I love you
More then you know

And when you forgot that we had a date
Or that look that you give when you show up late
Baby I love you
I love you anyway

So here's my promise made tonight
You can count on me for life
Cause that's when I love you
When nothing you do can change my moind
The more I learn
The more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you
When I love you
No matter what

That's when I love you
When nothing baby
Nothing you do could change my mind
The more I learn
The more I love
The more my heart can't get enough
That's when I love you
When I love you
No matter what

okayy this is SUCH a lovely song..
well i guess it's pretty old.. but..
doesn't that make it even nicer =D

been mugging alot the last few days
with huiyi and wang...
and with xinyi yingrong yumei yngtyng too...
and of course myself.
haiys.
blocks is in 2 days
and i freaking dont feel the anxiety
someone pinch me
i must still be dreaming.

oh wells..
i hope i really score well..
time to set insignificant stuffs aside and concentrate first..
one week.
it's gonna be over soon.
SOON.
i wonder how long this word actually meant.

part of me is scolding myself for not really relaxing for this june holidays
and part of me is telling myself i did the right thing.
HMMS.
darn my 4 weeks gone just like that
should've played more =C

gotta go...
soooo late already.
sleep and continue mugging tomorrow
BOOO.
byes

2008-06-11T23:08:00.000+08:00

Went to town with junhong today...
well at least he got a new name ;)
hahaha!
bought an outfittergirls top
kinda cute
but i think have to get abit skinnier before i can wear it and look nice.. =P

tomorrow's training!!
YAY
hmm.. i've been trying to get my fitness back on track
running..
pt..
weights..
the first day i got to it...
i was dying. =P
well that shows how unfit i was
but i hope i'm getting back in shape
or i'll just die when training starts.
actually i have no idea why the hell i'm training now.
i said before. if i lose that. i dont even know what volleyball means anymore.
but too bad.. i guess i'm just not good enough.
hmm... the ikea trip photos with shinyi and gang are up in my shutterfly album!
=)
link is on the left..
"picture me"
lovely pictures there..

mugging.. is going on..
not very well.
oh wells.. going to mug with xinyi after training tomorrow
hope it turns out good..
AND HOPE I SEE COOL PEOPLE
*hinthints

ermm
okayy i dont have much to say. =P
oh oh oh
i'm falling in love with shopping online
hahaha
there are reallly cheap stuffs..
and cool stuffs..
and nice stuffs..
hmms i should stop wasting money!
oh talk about wasting money.
i ate swenson's with junhong today
HA
so fattening.

okiees
gotta go back to mugging and well..
settling family stuffs..
tas~

loveloves

my only encouragement to continue playing volleyball
was all that you said to me 3 years ago.
"the best thing in my life,
is to watch you play.
so give it all you've got."
i dont think you remember it.
but it's all i've got..

2008-06-06T23:25:00.001+08:00

things are getting kinda out of hand nowadays...
well...
gotta keep my foot on the ground.

anyways,
pictures of finals and the hcvb CHAMPION team are in the link
"picture me"
to the right...
go view them!
they're cuuute =)
whoo~

hope training resumes like really soon..
i'm missing volleyball so much

well... i've gotta mug like mad too
since i have only about 2 weeks of the holidays left.
i shouldn't have started so late.
i knew i wouldn't have enough time
damn.

hmm...

yays pw is on track...

at least we're following my timeline

;)

anyways.. gotta get back to work
just really random now.. hee

"the best thing in my life,
is to watch you play."
my only reassurance is that you meant it
even if you said it years ago.

2008-06-03T23:31:00.001+08:00

伍家輝
雖然我愿意

请让我靠近你轻轻对你说
别让我每个夜为你受折磨
是多么不容易才默默放手
为了我就当作这次为了我
别让我因为你被回忆折磨
而空气凝结了我们的脸孔

我别无选择

就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然被放弃
虽然我愿意
就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意

再让我靠近你轻轻对你说
当我说我要你从此好好过
是真的否则我怎么肯放手
为了我就当作这次为了我
赐给我你现在幸福的笑容
别让恨冻结了我们的脸孔

请你做选择

就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然被放弃
虽然我愿意
就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意

心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意

就算我们之间有什么问题
依然想念着你
虽然被放弃
虽然我愿意
就算我们之间有什么难题
黑夜我还想着你
心碎人孤寂
虽然我愿意

心还想着你...

i don't know what you think..
we may be further apart.
but i love you my dear.

2008-05-29T13:25:00.000+08:00

i'm turning 17 this saturday...
the closer the day comes,
the more i think it isn't very significant after all...
well.. it's just another day.
haven't i had 16 other days which are just like that
nothing very special at all

and...
i guess it's really time for me to grow up.
i need to accept... that
fairytales dont exist...
crying doesn't help anything...
and things don't always turn out to be how you want them to.

life's changed.

2008-05-09T18:30:00.000+08:00

well...
things could've been better.
i dont know what to do now.
baby won't you tell me why
there is sadness in your eyes
i don't wanna say goodbye to you
love is one big illusion
as we try to forget
but there is something left in my head

you're the one who set it up
now you're the one to make it stop
i'm the one who's feeling lost right now
now you want me to forget
every little thing you said
but there is something left in my head

i won't forget the way you're kissing
the feeling's so strong
we're lasting for so long
but i'm not the man your heart is missing
that's why you go away
i know

you were never satisfied
no matter how i tried
now you wanna say goodbye to me
love is one big illusion
as we try to forget
but there is something left in my head

i won't forget the way you're kissing
the feeling's so strong
we're lasting for so long
but i'm not the man
your heart is missing
that's why you go away
i know

yes i know

sitting here all alone in the middle of nowhere
don't know which way to go
there ain't so much to say now between us
there ain't so much for me
there ain't so much for you anymore

~ Michael learns to rock, That's why you go away

i totally love that songg
so oldd so touchingg!
hahaha...
been replaying and replaying it on my phone since...
forever? =P
okayy now.. one more song =)

I never felt nothing in the world like this before
Now I'm missing you
And I'm wishing that you would come back through my door
Why did you have to go?
You could have let me know
So now I'm all alone

Girl you could have stayed
but you wouldnt give me a chance
With you not around
It's a little bit more then i can stand
And all my tears they keep running down my face
Why did you turn away

So why does your pride
make you run and hide
Are you that afraid of me
But I know it's a lie
What you keep inside
This is not how you wanted to be

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine
It just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do
I'll wait for you

It's been a long time since you called me
(How could you forget about me)
You got me feeling crazy
How can you walk away
Everything stays the same
I just can't do it baby

What will it take to make you come back
Girl I told you what it is
And it just ain't like that
Why can't you look at me
your still in love with me
Don't leave me crying

Baby why can't we just start over again
Get it back to the way it was
If you give me a chance
I can love you right
But you're telling me it wont be enough

So baby I will wait for you
Cause I don''t know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine
it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do
I'll wait for you

So why does you pride make you run & hide
Are you that afriad of me
But I know it's a lie what you're keeping inside
Thats not how you wanted to be
Baby I will wait for you
Baby I will wait for you
If it's the last thing i do

Baby I will wait for you
Cause I don't know what else i can do
Don't tell me I ran out of time
If it takes the rest of my life
Baby I will wait for you
If you think I'm fine
it just aint true
I really need you in my life
No matter what i have to do
I'll wait for you
I'll Be Waiting.

~Elliott Yamin, Wait for you

2008-05-06T14:19:00.000+08:00

let me
let you go...

today was match number 1 of quarter-finals...
against SAJC...
won them 25-17, 25-12...
overall was quite okayy.. i think i played about...
5 points of something?
but the entire atmosphere was..
FANTASTIC...
from the moment i stepped into court...
the other 5 were like..
so enthu and shouting like mad..
then was just shouting and shouting with them...
greatt feeling..
NOW i feel the team spirit..

this week iss...
plain crazy...
matches on monday wednesday friday...
training till 9 after my matches on monday (it's today!) and wednesday...
just had chem test this morning..
GP compre+AQ test tomorrow...
econs test on friday..
saturday train again..
wow...
it's only been one day..
AND I'M PRETTY WORN OUT.
hope the rest of the week goes well..
and hope i actually survive through it..
jiayouu to my teamates too..
cos i guess they're pretty much as busy as, some even more busy than i am...
so... JIAYOUU

okayy.. it's pretty late now..
tomorrow's a long day..
i end school at 3.30..
sadded cant go watch guys' match..
important match tomorrow.. hmms..
JIAYOU TO YOU GUYS TOO...

it's 11.19 now.
gotta go..
be back soon to blog again!

can't wait for tomorrow!! ;)
miss you.. so much..

2008-05-02T07:11:00.000+08:00

preliminary rounds are over...
now on to the quater-finals...
draw was with AC, SA and VJ...
hmm.. coach didn't want this draw..
think he wanted the total opposite...
now JJ, NY, AJ and MJ are in the other group..
looks like we'll have a greater challenge in semis..
that is IF WE MAKE IT.
but... yep.. hope we do...

anyways.. got our team bag!
our nike total 90 grip.
greattt bag.. and havent seen anyone carrying it you know..
that's great..
and for a great price of 55 too!

realised i havent blogged for quite a while..
quite caught up with my own stuffs now...
training.. matches.. tests.. SLEEP..
there never seems to be enough time to do them alll
and do them well...
now i know the reasons why we were put through countless boring talks on TIME MANAGEMENT last time...
kinda regret sleeping through them you know..
could've managed myself better...
oh wells.. too late
messing up alll my priorities now.
hope i get my life back soon.
but wait.
I DONT WANT COMPS TO END..
=C

been thinking alot these few days..
(wonder where i got all that time to do so)
and.. i owe apologies to alot of people
my family..
for always coming home with a black face..
after training... after matches... after school...
mood's never good...
my friends...
missing all the opportunities to catch up with you guys..
really have no time to squeeze out of my hectic schedule now..
you...
i'm just utterly sorry.. dont know how else i can put across my apologies but..
i'm sorry.
truly sorry.
things WILL get better soon.
i promise.
and you know me...
you have my word for it.

okayy.. that's all for the heavy-hearted stuffs...
anyways...
i realised i have been squealing to charis heiyi and tricia about my eyecandy whenever he walks past...
for like the past.... forever?
hahaha.. i think i should stop. hmms.
isn't REALLY an eyecandy anymore actually...
hahahhaa...
yearh yearh about my san fen zhong re du...
=P

okiee.. math test tomorrow.. chem test monday
SHOOT.
guess what?
i dont think i can finish studying..
and guess what else?
i'm gonna flunk my math tomorrow..
THREE CHEERS FOR ME.
man..i havent flunked math since... a long time ago..
maybe i should start studying and stop blogging..
oh wells...
okayy.. shall end here then...
goodbyes!

p.s. anyone who wants to come down for the volleyball quarter finals matches at CCAB, please ask me for the schedule! haha.. the entire team would LOVEEE supporters =D

it's been a great two months dear angel..
dont want it to ever end. =)

2008-04-26T19:09:00.000+08:00

it's a real hard time for both of us i know...
i'm so sorry it has to be this way...
but wait, my dear.. just wait 3 more weeks...
things will turn out better.
i promise.

2008-03-18T22:24:00.001+08:00

I cried.
is this the start of it?

2008-03-03T06:26:00.000+08:00

please dont let history repeat itself again.

but i know i'm gonna expect more of this in the future...

2008-02-24T10:35:00.000+08:00

i knew it was coming...
i knew the results would turn out like that.
why do i still feel this way?
maybe listening to him say it actually confirmed it..

maybe he was right.
maybe i didn't work hard enough.
then i really didn't deserve it.

i just need time alone now...
need to sort out my thoughts...
sorry...

2008-02-16T18:50:00.000+08:00

hello!

havent blogged for some time...
oh wells...
quite alot has happened....
OG BBQ ON THIRD DAY OF CHINESE NEW YEAR!
whoo~
changpeng, huiyi, lingyong and i went to shop for stuffs at giant in the morning.. (for bbq)
and then met the rest to go to lingyong's house!
mann i like his house.. QUITE BIG LEHH...
=)
then like quite neat and clean too...
my house is in a total mess... hmms.
okayy so we put down our bags then went BIKING!
yay at east coast park...
WALK SO FAR CAN.
=P
okayy la.. i lazy la...
then we rented some double bikes and some single bikes
we swopped and all that throughout the journey...
had the double tandem bike for one part of the journey...
so freaky!
hahaha...
okayy la.. i trust you.
then after that went to play arcade...
(wasn't in our original plan =P )
yayyy shoot hoops with yujie
got to level 4 leh!
i think we quite pro.
but timo pro-er!
level 6 or 7 HIMSELF.
womg
then lingyong and wanyi played time crisis...
they zai lehh...
hahaha...
i'm serious.. i havent gotten more than 300 000 points before. =P
i feel lousy. hmms.
oh wells..
SINCE WHEN DO YOU EVEN SEE A GIRL PLAYING TIME CRISIS HUR.
=P
okayy walked back to lingyong's house with wang, huiyi and lisa first
to START FIRE.
yayyy...
guess what...
I KNOW HOW TO START FIRE LE.. hoorah...
then cp lisa eugene huiyi and i were like...
MENG FANNING THE FIRE after that..
eugene got more skill than cp.. =P
kayy la..
they both very pro
hahahhaa
then the fire was started!
I FEEL DAMN STUPID LA..
forgot to bring mandarin oranges.
I TOOK THEM OUT OF THE FRIDGE
AND LEFT THEM ON MY TABLE.
wth.
then bai nian that time so awkward la.. didn't know what to do..
then his mum gave angbao somemore...chao nice
THANKS LY'S FAMILY.
okayy back to the bbq...
yayy our food was NICEEEE..
esp. the prawns....
that was the fav! hahaha
thanks to both of us mann.. ;)
but in the end couldn't finish the food too.. haha
too much le...
but YAY WE FINISHED THE SATAY..
100 sticks!
after that was alot of dunking..
hahaha...
INTO THE POOL.
so funny la.. then ALL THE GUYS were damn wet.
hahaa
then we girls were dryy.. though i wanted to get wet. hur.
but oh wells.
cp lost his specs in the pool!
and yay to timo's, wang's, huiyi's phone and cp himself, they got back his glasses..
cp is chao pro..
hahaha...
okiee...
then we went home..
yepp...
today was sooooo funnnnnn....
YAY OG40 ROCKS MY SOCKS.
whoo~
i can't wait for OG chalet! yayyy
but i have this weeeiiirrddd feeling i'm gonna have to saigang again
hmms.

vday!
school... was.....
CHAOTIC.
hahaha..
presents EVERYWHERE la...
hahaa...
gave out my wooden heart clips...
and timeouts...
then received alot of things too!
muffins, brownies, jellies, chocos, candies, handmades, soft toys, apple?!
hahaha...
and of course 2 STALKS OF SUNFLOWERS.
yayy
from jiayun (dear bro) and yangyi (dearest!)
hahaha....
yayy i like flowers...
erm...
after school went to watch p.s. i love you!
yayy
now i know where to go where you wont really see people you know...
that movie was....
niceeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee
erm.. okayy la.. i was crying most of the time lo...
actually start then i cry le...
heh
okayy la..
so i was REALLY TIRED THAT DAY.
when i get tired i cry very very easily.
5 hours of sleep in 2 days leh!
oh wells...
yepp...
thanks.... =)
erm.. and sorry =P
then went for dinner lo...
yayy dinner was filling!
but nice la...
EVERYWHERE WAS PACKED WITH PEOPLE CAN.
goodness.
and like.. turn left turn right turn front turn back alllllll couples.
goodness.
hahaha
anyways.. thanks... again.

that's all so far.
shall stop writing...
loooonnnggg post here...
anyways... for pictures... just go to the link on the RIGHT!
under "PICTURE ME"...
you'll get lotsa pictures there.. =)
too ma fan to post pics here... haha..
do go there to look!
;)
byesss

thanks for your letter...
i know you didn't expect my reaction...
but at least i guess it shows how important you really are to me...
i really appreciate the effort you've put in for that...
=)
i love the times spent with you too...
*hughug

2008-01-25T11:07:00.000+08:00

i miss you...
so much...
but not enough
to bring you back into my life...
it hurts too much.

i've been feeling really bad these few days...
like really really bad...
one thing is that i cant play in the main team next year.
ninth year now...
if i cant play...
i actually cant find the reason in me continuing.
i dont know what i'm training for!
i know i shuoldn't think this way.
yes, coach is right about every one being important.
but look...
if you wanna be practical...
what's the use of the team getting champions when you havent exactly played a part in it?
i feel so bad...
so bad that i'm thinking this way.
but i guess i have no choice...
i love volleyball too much...
and i have nothing else to do anyways...
so i guess i'll just train...
but i hope A div does well this year!
praying very very hard for every player on the team now...
that none will get injured, zoe will recover VERY soon...
all will improve tremendously in skills...
well.. i guess that's all i can do for them till now..
oh wells...

another would be my....
ct...
yep...
people who know me KNOW what's going on...
i dont know what to do la..
just hope i wont be outcast. boo...

anyways...
today was release of Os results...
erm.
jiayou huiyi...
and jiayou all else who are getting results today...
no matter good or bad..
i think you guys have put in effort la...
so congrats on that part.. =)

went to cedar to comfort huiyi today...
hope you've cheered up okayy!!!!!!!
aiyar..
just now got 5 retards entertain you leh...
of course must cheer up rightt...
and you always have the 5 of us (at least)
to back you up...
no matter what happens..
huiyi.. remember that okayy...
we'll try our very very best to help you.
love you!

zijia...
dont be too disappointed too..
you told me you expected it rightt...
well i guess if you really meant it...
it would've gone easier on you...
need to learn to lax your expectations abit okayy..
it doesn't count if you say you expect it and then to be disappointed when it really happens...
many other things are gonna happen like that...
just take them one at a time...
and accept...
anyways.. it's not bad what!!!!
hahaha
i'm still proud of you...
REMEMBER THAT OKAYY...
shinyi and gang...
I'M VERY PROUD OF YOU GUYS..
=)
jiayouu!!

for crystal and yingrong..
I'M SO PROUD OF YOU GUYS...
=)
now all you guys need to do is to follow your hearts
and do whatever pleases you okayy.
but remember!
this choice may just change your life.

yay ate ice cream and hello panda today..
MY 2 FAV. SNACKS!
so funn...
okayy... i shall go now..
econs test tomorrow..
have to do something about it..
bye~

i want to forgive you
and i want to forget you

2008-01-05T15:11:00.000+08:00

OG 40 outing!

seoul garden dinner

truth or dare sessions in TAKA...

whoots love all of you guys in OG 40!

you guys gave me one of the best times in my lifeee....

whoots 3 cheers!

2007-12-14T18:01:00.000+08:00

hellos people!
havent blogged in AGES...

alright... had volleyball chalet...
IT WAS GREATTT
THANKS JUNIORS... for the wonderful farewell party...
will never forget you guys... ;)
thanks for the presents too..
the vb tee, erhem, make up, certificates and letters...
really.. thanks so much...
love you all!
pictures from the chalet are all in the link on the right!
("picture me!)

wnt sakura with shinyi and gang... ahaha...
except that shinyi wasn't there...
hmm that's weird...
alright.. so only me, zijia, jiahui and kaihui...
SO FATTENING LA
especially the yummmmmy dessert! =)

okayy...
guess what!
i think i'm in looove....hahaha...
let's call this guy LS....
he's well...
cute! yet mature....
and wen3 zhong4...
and... MY TYPE. hahaha
but so sad....
no one can ever know...
and neither will LS know.. =(
oh wells... i dont think i'll see him any sooner too...
so sad right! =((
haii it's alright....
i'll always remember SW's baby face! =)
okayy this is getting WAYY OBVIOUS.
i shall stop rambling...

okayy...
i'm quitting coffee club already...
saturday's my last day of work and mag wants to have a farewell party for me...
SO NICE OF HER.
ahahahaha.....
but she wants me to sponsor the party la...
so that's not very nice of her... ahaha
but if i sponsor i think my pay will be GONE.

anyways... i hope i'll have fun in australia!
AUSSIE HERE I COME!
i'm flying next friday...
so excited! hahaaha

okayy i'm thinking of my shuai ge (LS!) again and I SOUND DESPERATE.
okayy i shall stop.

okayy now for some personal messages...
gonna address the following few paras to certain people..
though i wont say who.... well.
go figure.
if you're smart enough you'll know. boo.

argh.
let me tell you.
YOU HAVE NO LIMITS.
it's fine if you joke about someone or laugh AT someone,
as long as you stop and let the person know it was just a brief joke.
if you continue and refuse to stop,
IT STARTS GETTING IRRITATING I TELL YOU.
it becomes an INSULT and not a joke anymore.
girl, i hope you know this is for you.
YOUR JOKES ARE STARTING TO GET UNFUNNY AND SOMETIMES IT HURTS
IT HURTS.
ALRIGHT??!!
and cant you ever think of anyone other than yourself?
everyone has to give in to you all the time...
even when others have to sacrifice,
you take it as if it's for granted and must be so...
and after people have made so much sacrifices, and ask for some returns,
you ALWAYS say NO without hesitation.
IT'S FUCKING IRRITATING SO STOP IT.

okayy this is for someone else...
i know you care, i know you want things to work out.
but i dont know how to tell you this...
we are.....
quite impossible.
i'm so sorry..
you've showered me with so many compliments and encouragement that i've felt better at times when i feel really bad...
but it all feels like plain sweet-talking with no meaning after a while...
probably it's my problem that i'm not used to it....
but maybe... it's just not my style, not how i flow.
and..... sometimes,it's even gnissarrabme...
i'm so sorry... you're just not exactly what i want to go for.
i'll try... but i'll tell you...
i cant promise you anything, and i doubt i will in the future.
i'm so sorry.

this is for my sis...
jie! hope you're having fun in rome and all that.
PLEASE TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF AND BE VERY VERY CAREFUL
LOVE YOU SIS!
muah
=)

*still thinking of LS... wahaha*
i think i'm abit sick in the mind.

okayy i guess i'll stop my post here....
I DESPERATELY NEED TO CHANGE MY BLOGSKIN...

p.s. i wanna stop all that you call nonsense too. but i cant help it. SLASH. and let me bleed.

2007-11-20T06:37:00.000+08:00

i love you...
i still do...
but i have to forget you.

2007-10-28T03:40:00.000+08:00

hello!

yesterday...
had my first day of work..
pretty scary.. didn't really know what to do...
so i kept filling people's glasses....
clearing people's plates and walking up and down the aisle...
hahaha

but it went pretty smoothly...
all thanks to jun poh, this girl with lyna's nametag(though she's not called lyna), mac and manager!
thanks so much...
i would've died if jun poh and "lyna" hadn't saved me for like...quite a few times..=P
and i mixed up a bill, almost lost it too...
so scary... later cut from my pay howwww
okay... so later.. still have to work 5-1030
please feel free to come and look for me!
raffles place, coffee club outlet.. =)
hope everything goes well today...

anyways.. yesterday was last day of school too...
actually i dont feel it yet...
maybe cos wednesday still got chi O's...
and i'm still working on tuesday la..
so scary
hope i dont get a B... =(
oh yes.. as for the pictures.. haven't had time to load them.. so next time alright!
sorry...
right now.. i have to bathe, change and get ready for work.
soooo busy.... haiii

byebye~

2007-10-20T21:39:00.000+08:00

hello!

okayy this entire week is.....

busy...

and very happening.. =)

pictures!

we went to kbox on monday...

shinyi was sick.. =( she didn't go..

it's okayy shinyi! we'll SURELY go with you another time!

zijia and kaihui!

jiahui and i...

jiahui and i again! i look weird...

yay 4 of us! =)) (from left, jiahui, zijia, kaihui and me)

in the midst of singing.... (from left, jiahui,zijia, kaihui)

them again............................................

ONE OF MY FAVOURITES! five of us, shinyi and gang.. =)))

okayy on friday...

OUR GRADUATION DAY....

we ordered canadian pizza to celebrate our graduation from nanyang!

canadian pizza!

yay us and our pizza! (from left, me, kaihui, jiahui)

dirrty fingers! (zijia and shinyi)

all of us! on 4th floor, outside conference room... jiahui look like she's in another world.. =P (from left, zijia,shinyi,me,kaihui,jiahui)

our 2 pizzas! bbq chicken bonanza and hawaiian! =) d-e-licious

the end product.. =)

kaihui and her constipated face.. haha.. and cheesestick! (so fattening)

me and my pizza! =)

Shinyi, her pizza, and her dirrty fingers! hahaha

erhm?

zijia and weird smile.. with cheesestick too!

yangyi and i in the toilet.. =P

4 of us in the toilet! hahahaha... all look so prim and proper.. of course la.. grad ceremony ma.. =P

zijia and i in library 4th level, using the notebooks there... love the place..

zijia and kaihui with the notebooks.... zijia you have a weird smile...

huiying and me!

huiying and zijia! with the graduation scroll thing.. =)

zijia and i...
the rest went back home with parents le...

yay! graduated! (from left, kaihui, shinyi, jiahui)

all of us in the LT1.... after the ceremony... graduants, class of 2007!

okayy i am working for coffee club now..
as a part time waitress at raffles place!
please come visit me if you have time! the following pictures are a little....
zi lian.. =P

the coffee club logo on my uniform...

me in the uniform... (i actually look super tall... just that i dont wanna post the full picture.. =P)

alright that's all...

enjoy and tata!

2007-10-16T02:16:00.000+08:00

I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO.
I'M AT A F*CKING TOTAL MESS NOW.

why is everybody like that??
WHYYYYYY

and believe it or not
I CALL THAT BITCHING. YES AND I'M NOT HAPPY.
if you really mean it, TELL HER.
it's not right speaking like this behind her back..
STOP IT

i dont know what to do about you.
I REALLY DONT...
i cant continue, i cant stop.
please.

oh god.. someone...
help me.. please....
i cant show it, i cant tell,
i dont know what else i can do.

i dont wanna do what i did before.
it hurts. it hurts so much.
but there's nothing else i can take my anger and my frustration out on!
if nothing else works, maybe pain is the best way to forget things.

2007-10-15T05:14:00.000+08:00

hello...

on friday..
went for hc's open house...
got sian after a while..
so went to serene center's macs with shinyi, zijia, jiahui and kaihui!
=))
talked and ate ALOT. hahaha..
haven't been so happy for a longggg time...
just crapping..
laughing at someone's ex...
lipstick guy! haahaha.. eww
and the macho and wet person...
haha.. so amusing..
had a great time guys..
thanks.. =)

aiyar! never take photos at macs.. =(
okayy yesterday went to watch balls of fury with junhong...
quite weird show...hmm.. he likes it though.
WEIRD.
then ate kfc.. haha.. ate so late la! so fattening..

okayy was supposed to go to expo today..
for metro's and harvey norman's sale...
but.. not feeling right today...
eyes are sore and swollen..
oh wells..
so i shall stay home and rot.
maybe will go and rent some dvds to watch later
like... CSI!HAHAHAHA...
yay

alright.. nothing else..
oh yes... there's something i need to say.

i'm sorry

2007-10-10T23:00:00.000+08:00

hello!
okayy this is bad..
i havent updated for more than a month!

so the past month... i was busy with exams..
today's the last day...
and... FINALLY i get to relax..
hope i've done alright..
tomorrow getting back lang arts and chem paper..
*crossing my fingers..

okayy.. so that actually sums up my past month.. hahaha..
no life huh?
and.. i'm stopping drums..
mm not big deal actually..
dont plan to go far with it anyway..
then... had shopping spree like.. last weekend..
=P
cos the next and last paper was only on wednesday...
so decided to relax in the weekends...

okayy..
i shall talk about today just to make zijia JEALOUS
=PPPP

went to ikea,anchorpoint and queensway with jiahui, shinyi and kaihui today..
think we were laughing at weird things..
anyways.. pictures!

that's jiahui and shinyi in school.. while we waited 3HOURS FOR KAIHUI. (er hem. *clears throat)

That's jiahui, shinyi and me on top! hahaha.. pictures pretty blur.. used my phone.. didn't bring my cam...

ohh and our favourite part of the day.. IKEA'S HOTDOG! wah.. filling man.BUT JIAHUI ATE 2.

kaihui and constipated smile. hahahaha.. that's my hotdog.. =)) yay food

okayy after our short meal...

okayy! so i shall update again when i get the time to...
looking for work too...
ANYBODY HAS LOBANG PLEASE INTRO ME.
i'll like.. thank you a lot. =D

i need the attention. i can't stand this on and off thing. maybe i'll have to end this. i'm sorry. please.. let me think about it.. and if possible, let's have some personal time and space for the time being.

2007-09-06T03:19:00.000+08:00

Hello!!

okayy sorry i haven't updated for more than a month..
=P
was just so busy mugging..
didn't think i have the time for this..
well.. so i decided to take a break and blog!! haha..
okayy so i shall just dump all the pictures of events that happened when i didn't blog..
so.. let's let pictures do the magic! =)

it's teacher's day party... and shinyi and gang has decided to bake cakes for the class and teachers! =)

This is taken in shinyi's lovely house.. (i seriously like her house ALOT.. very bohemian.. haha)
zijia, shinyi, kaihui, jiahui and me below..

jiahui's face wasn't clear in the previous one.. so here's another!

whoOots. zijia's and my FAVOURITE. haha.. our reflection and all.. very nice.. =) and our uniform look like they're glowing..

At Shinyi's house's fountain.. haha.. okay do you call it a fountain? but jiahui ALMOST bao guang.. haha... sit properly! and i look spastic too.. =P

Okayy.. so zijia's hands were shaky.. and i look like i'm wearing a tiara on my head!! haha...

okayy.. this is in class.. dont know how many eons ago did we take this.. haha.. but i keep forgetting to post.. sorry!

Okayy this was taken.. on the day the 90th anniversary celebrations were closed. at he back of our classroom... chao messy right.. hahaha... and the red tees look pretty spastic.. made me look fat and short-bodied... okayy so maybe i am already fat and short-bodied.. =P

another at our desks! =)

Okayy this was at pt training... on saturday.. with JIAOLIAN! haha.. realised i havent taken a picture with jiaolian before... and we look quite.... erm.... messy. haha.. sweat and everything.

seriously?! i dont know what i was doing... i dont know what jiaolian was doing.. i dont know what all of us were doing. hahahahahaha

jiaolian's evil.. she pulled my ponytail!! =( hahaha... xinyi has constipated face. lol.. sorry! dont kill me.. haha

This is like about half of my team!! hahaha... sec 1s to 3s.. let's see if i can name everybody..
Sarah, Michelle, Lydia, Cheryl, Stephanie, Hsiuchin, Rensyn, Chuning, Yiyuan, Zhiying, Hazel, Congzhi, Tingshan, Grace, Kristie, Xinyi, Jiaolian and ME! hahaha..

xinyi's birthday! celebrated by the sec 4s who were present(only me and yangyi) and 4 of the sec 3s! they're like.. SUPER NICE TO US. hahaha... xinyi we must be nice to them too.. =P

xinyi cutting her cake... (oh yes grace bought the cake! Ola to her!)

I think this pic is soooo Cute! hahaha..

Xinyi looking peaceful and all with her cake.. =P

That's xinyi sitting down... from left to right: hsiuchin, kristie, grace and me!

Our sec 1 juniors... left to right: yiyuan (judy??), minqhee, chuning

Okayy.. that's like.. camera set to timer.. haha..

Yangyi and i with Xinyi!

After that shufeng and I treated xinyi to sakae! ahaaha... buffet... that's shufeng with xinyi..

and that's me shufeng and xinyi! camera set to timer again.. haha

again!

haha.. after that xinyi and i went to catch "perfect stranger"! her first ever NC 16 show.. hahhaa... then we saw this cutteeee ratatouille poster and took a picture with it! we looked spastic man.. haha.. but cute!

okayy so that sorta concludes the one month of events...

oh yes...

i just watched "Pan's Labyrinth" yesterday...

it was a DVD...

oh man.. GREAT MOVIE!

it's like... a fairytale for adults...

it was really good..

though gory and stuffs at some parts...

it's NC 16.. come on...

and it's in spanish... but just read the subtitles..

it's not difficult to understand..

i strongly encourage all to watch it...

it's a production by picturehouse and this other company..

but it was shown exclusive to the cathay picturehouse..

i believe very few have actually watched it...

but 3 academy awards.. and i believe they deserve it! =)

okayy so i shall go back to mugging.. shall try to finish all my chem today.. =)

jiayou to me! hahaha

2007-07-31T20:43:00.000+08:00

heyy peeps!

okayy.. so over the weekends.. i went out with my sis, cousin and sister!
havent been out with the both of them TOGETHER for a while.
feels good! =)
nothing much actually..
went to far east to shop..
mm...
elsa bought lotsa things!
but i only bought a pair of shorts.. =(
haha
but nice enough la...
then my sis bought stuffs too!
so shuang to have someone driving you around..
hahaha..
like go town then my sis can just drive over..
no need to take the long and dumb bus.
SO SHUANG.
cant wait to get my license. hahaha..
provided i have a car to drive in the first place lar
=P

okayy.. so went to watch SIMPSONS after that.
HILARIOUS! hello people.
PLEASE GO AND WATCH.
haha.. althought they insulted greenday and i was pretty pissed..
but STILL A GOOD MOVIE.
smart jokes man. ;)

okayy after that went to starbucks and outside ZARA to sit...
took some pictures! hahhaa..
guess what we went into DSF to look for a toilet before going home.
and we couldn't find it.
had to ask security guard.
so paiseh can (though is not i ask one =P)

then we took pictures in the toilet too! haha.. so weird.
okayy.. so pictures!

THE SIMPSONS! haha.. this thing was there with an empty space on the couch for people to sit on and take picture! so cuteeee... hahaha

This was outside ZARA... SO COOL RIGHT. i think it's super super cool.. hha.. like kinda angsty.

That's elsa in the same pose! hahaha.. we both look cool man...

Outside ZARA! haha...

This was in the toilet of DSF.. haha.. they have a niceeee toilet. and good lighting! =)

Gosh dont ask me what i was doing. haha.. elsa said funny one.. and that was all i could come up with suddenly! hahaha.. i look spastic but. oh wells. at least kinda cute *wahahaha

2007-07-20T12:41:00.000+08:00

i'm sorry.
for you, and for myself.

you said it's about me.
yes i know...
but i'm saying i'm sorry because i know i've let you down.
but i had to tell you.
and i'm saying sorry... to ease my pain.
because i dont know what to say anymore...
i dont know what other reasons i have to forgive myself.
maybe i cant.. maybe i shouldn't.
but i know i am sorry.

i regret it.
and i regret it alot.
i know i've broken my promise once.
i know you're wondering how you can trust me again this time.
but take it as a lesson i learnt.
i regret it so much it hurts to even think of it.

so please.
i beg your forgiveness.
with all my heart.
i wont do it again.

对不起，但请你不要不理我
我知道我说什么也没用了
但我一定要你知道
我是真心诚恳地向你道歉
我对不起你了

i wont do it again.
you have my word,
believe it or not.