i've been too one-sided over this for too long...
now i think i sound like an incessantly whiny little bitch.
he's not gonna know any of this at the end, so why bother?

IT'S SO NOT WORTH IT.

and when i look at the pictures now, i feel slight disgust.
no more longing, no more self-pity.
it ends today. it ends now. no more.