it's 2.37am..
yep i have school tomorrow and i'm supposed to wake up at 5.30.

talked to my dad from about 12 to 2?
while doing time tunnel 4 of course..
but... was listening to him most of the time...
talked about sooo many things
it's like i havent seen him lighten up in ages

talked about his younger days..
his regrets, achievements, stress and all that
things he wouldn't have told me if we weren't there at that exact time at that exact setting

remember how it was like to want to turn 18 when you were only 10?
wow.. now i'm near 18 and i dont think it seems all that great
yes i get to drink i get to do wilder stuffs
but...
the thing that bothers me is
why am i not looking forward to being 25 now that i'm 18?
is it because the future is so uncertain now?
and i couldn't see all that when i was 10 and looking forward to 18?
not really
i didn't know what lay ahead of me and i still looked forward to it
maybe...
that's what i really need to do now..

i believe that our future's all planned out and waiting for us to live it through...
yep and i dont think many out there agree with me.
BUT
given a chance to look at what will happen next time, be it my future husband, job and kids...
i'm quite sure i dont wanna know all that right now.
secretly... i'm still waiting for another surprise to jump right out at me ;)

woah that was alot of thinking for a time like that...
it's time i get out of thinking about how i compare to others and well.. any other stuffs regarding me me and more, me.
time i give a little more time to making each day count.
sounds a little too preachy
but it just made my life a whole lot more meaningful ;)