it's the first time anyone has talked to me like that
i dont know...
i cant describe that feeling.
it's kinda like...
someone has punched me hard enough in the face
to make me wake up.

start blaming him?
i dont think i can do that.
maybe i should just stop everything here.
and..if it really is so hard.
i guess i can let it go.
it did seem like the world to me some time back.
but i think.. it's starting to fade.
and thanks to the people around me too.

i know what i did was stupid.
i didn't know what i was thinking then

i know you want me to promise i'll never do it again.
but i know what i'm capable of doing when i'm not thinking right
and i dont want to break another promise anymore
so i'm sorry.
i can only tell you i'll try
and trust me.
the next time these things happen,
i will think twice bout' what you said
i will.
thanks tricia.. thanks wangyi..