i miss you...
so much...
but not enough
to bring you back into my life...
it hurts too much.



i've been feeling really bad these few days...
like really really bad...
one thing is that i cant play in the main team next year.
ninth year now...
if i cant play...
i actually cant find the reason in me continuing.
i dont know what i'm training for!
i know i shuoldn't think this way.
yes, coach is right about every one being important.
but look...
if you wanna be practical...
what's the use of the team getting champions when you havent exactly played a part in it?
i feel so bad...
so bad that i'm thinking this way.
but i guess i have no choice...
i love volleyball too much...
and i have nothing else to do anyways...
so i guess i'll just train...
but i hope A div does well this year!
praying very very hard for every player on the team now...
that none will get injured, zoe will recover VERY soon...
all will improve tremendously in skills...
well.. i guess that's all i can do for them till now..
oh wells...

another would be my....
ct...
yep...
people who know me KNOW what's going on...
i dont know what to do la..
just hope i wont be outcast. boo...

anyways...
today was release of Os results...
erm.
jiayou huiyi...
and jiayou all else who are getting results today...
no matter good or bad..
i think you guys have put in effort la...
so congrats on that part.. =)

went to cedar to comfort huiyi today...
hope you've cheered up okayy!!!!!!!
aiyar..
just now got 5 retards entertain you leh...
of course must cheer up rightt...
and you always have the 5 of us (at least)
to back you up...
no matter what happens..
huiyi.. remember that okayy...
we'll try our very very best to help you.
love you!

zijia...
dont be too disappointed too..
you told me you expected it rightt...
well i guess if you really meant it...
it would've gone easier on you...
need to learn to lax your expectations abit okayy..
it doesn't count if you say you expect it and then to be disappointed when it really happens...
many other things are gonna happen like that...
just take them one at a time...
and accept...
anyways.. it's not bad what!!!!
hahaha
i'm still proud of you...
REMEMBER THAT OKAYY...
shinyi and gang...
I'M VERY PROUD OF YOU GUYS..
=)
jiayouu!!

for crystal and yingrong..
I'M SO PROUD OF YOU GUYS...
=)
now all you guys need to do is to follow your hearts
and do whatever pleases you okayy.
but remember!
this choice may just change your life.

yay ate ice cream and hello panda today..
MY 2 FAV. SNACKS!
so funn...
okayy... i shall go now..
econs test tomorrow..
have to do something about it..
bye~

i want to forgive you
and i want to forget you