had a talk out. well.. someone doesn't know how lucky he/she is. that's too bad. you have everything a person can want, yet you choose to leave a blind eye to it. maybe it was my fault. so i'm sorry.

i realised most of what i say referred to myself. so true... yet so unwilling to do anything. i will do something when i've summoned enough courage. courage enough to end everything. everything i have treasured for so long. treasured to keep my life going. my life? well.. to hell with my life. i dont know why everything must be so hard for me. or maybe i created the trouble myself.

falling in love with someone whom you never ever should was already a big mistake.. falling deeper in was bigger. it's like getting stuck in an abyss, with only the strength of your good pals to pull you up. and sometimes, instead of pulling you outta the abyss, they let go, and you fall deeper. that hasn't happened to me. nd i dont want it to. well. all i can say is, love sucks.

dont think i'll do nothing. i WILL. in time.