I AM REALLY SORRY. i really didn't realise it. oh my godd. i dont know what to do now. i really cannot handle it anymore. fine you blame me for everything. but have you ever thought about it? there was nothing i can do. i have never even trusted if anything would come out of it. it's not like you dont know what i face and how many times i've tumbled and couldn't stand up. it's not like you dont know how much i cry due to the stress i face. i may not be who you want me to be. but i know, i am myself. i'm really sorry that's all i can say. because i never will take that path.

i thought you were the one who understood.



















something else now..








i shall just shut up. maybe just f.o.d. no one will notice even if i disappear off the surface of the earth. i dont need anyone to know either. i've had enough. i just cant take it. LEARN TO LET GO is all that people say. maybe i'll just never learn. what's not mine, WILL NEVER BE MINE.

who knows the tears i lose every night? who knows that i cry myself to sleep every night? who's knows?? who knows....