When i'm sad, you dont know it
When i'm angry, you dont feel it
When i cry, you dont see it.

okay. i'm sorry about the previous post. but i'm really pissed. okay fine. i guess you all are pissed with me too. go ahead lar. scold me. i need to wake up anyway.

and i have no problem. go think about what YOU'VE done. you're the one with the problem. darn it. pot calling the kettle black.--

i dont understand. i dont understand at all. why must i do all these. why cant i stand up for myself. why cant i accept the fact that everything is screwed. THERE IS NO ONE IN THIS WORLD WHOM I CAN TRUST. not you, not him, not her, not them. when i was about to celebrate that i finally found someone i could trust, everything just has to crumble. EVERYTHING. no one understands. i'm always deemed as over-reacting or unreasonable or impulse, or doing without thinking, when actually i'm the sane one and you aren't. dont expect things YOUR way. because when you work with me, you get nothing of that sort.

do what you like, you're not my property anyway. do whatever you want, kill me if you have to, but do it secretly because i dont want to see you in hell. i dont want to see you suffer like i did. i dont want to see you cry. i'm yours to do whatever you want but i want no harm to ever come to you.

~what am i supposed to believe?death?because all i'm left with is this life of mine.i have nothing else to give.~
i know you hate me.but its the truth.