why is it that you have all the perfect life and that all i can do is sit in the toilet every day and cry my hearts out? why is it that you have all that i dont and that i have no one to talk to?

its not fair. it never was, it never is, it never will be.

can say i almost cried during training just now. i'm so tired, so exhausted, jaded. everything's piling up for me and i cant even find myself, let alone find my way out of this pile.

can only wait for things to happen.