oh my freaking goodness. what is happening? So many things are going on right now and i'm totally busted. okay.. ben.. mr. teo.. team.. work.. band..
HOW DO I COPE. YOU WANNA KNOW? YOU REALLY REALLY WANNA KNOW?? by slogging your hearts out and puking blood just to satisfy people. that's just the beginning.

ben... hmm... emails? MORE. but forget it. *tolerance level*

mr. teo. BUSTED. NO MORE FRIENDLIES IN NYGH ANYMORE SO LONG AS MR. TEO IS ALIVE AND IN CHARGE OF VOLLEYBALL. or i can jump off the building STRAIGHT. got scolded. so.. yearh.. want friendlies next time, SMU. or other places. no more nanyang hall. or i'll be slaughtered for at least a thousand times. why? because everybody believes THEY will rape us. COME ON LAR. WE ALSO NOT THAT PRETTY RIGHT. IF THEY REALLY RAPE THEN IS THEY NO TASTE LOR. no offence but yearh. haha. PURE CRAP AND CRAZINESS. just got scolded by mr. teo lar. cant face him anymore.

team? yearh.. team talk was successful for all of you but not totally for me. because i'm nyvb sec 2 '05 batch's nanny. haha. i am in charge of everything. sometimes i flare up for what seems small stuffs for you girls but not for me. You all may think i'm unreasonable, bitchy, bad-tempered and stupid but TRY BEING CAPTAIN FOR 1 DAY. it just sucks. HERE I AM SAYING SORRY NOW TO THOSE I FLARE UP WITH TODAY BECAUSE TOO MANY THINGS HAVE HAPPENED AND I JUST BURST.too many things piling inside me. and i have no one to spill to. so i have to let my emotions go once in a while.

work.. sab week this week.. time for me to catch up on my work but still dont have the energy to.. VERY STRESSED. THAT'S ONE OF THE REASONS I BURST TOO.

band.. erm.. so sorry elle.. dont have much time to practise these few weeks.. please please bear with me. because i have alot of other priorities. i know you get pissed when i refuse to play but i really dont have the energy sometimes. i can see that your face changes yearh.. you should know your emotions show very OBVIOUSLY... so i'm VERY VERY SORRY.

oh my goodness i have done so much wrong. I AM SO SORRY TO ALL THOSE I HURT. i will try to control myself.