hope you enjoy it this time... you gave it all away.

Tuesday, January 25, 2005

ARGH.
WE LOST THE MATCH TODAY.
=::( a confirmation. goodbye nationals. y cant i have been faster and don't look at the ball drop? freak. i could have got it saved. i could have. i noe it. u noe it. mr. teo knows it. jiao lian knows it. we freaking not getting into nationals. there's NO way we can beat Jurong and bukit panjang. even if we wanna believe, there's no use anymore. it's enough. shutup people. there's no use dreaming anymore. no nationals, no dreams, no happiness. wake up. its only a dream. it will be one, and must be one. wake up.

cried in the bathroom today. both home and cck sports hall de. kicked, banged, crumped the wall with my fists and feet. knuckles were red. almost bled. freak. and to believe i could actually get hurt jus because i lost a match. people will think : so wat if u lost? listen people. getting into nationals were our dreams. and in 1 split second, it was smashed to a million pieces. think abt it guys. think real hard. how will u feel? one word to explain. Freak.

anyway... played guitar when i came home. quite cool. could get the strumming and picking done wif the least bit of accuracy. very hard, very hard indeed. but... i dun expect to learn overnight ya? i'm still practical here although i just cried out my brains jus now. ok. had enough. blog next time. cyas people. bye.

wishing at 2:05 PM